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Judy's blog |
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This is my blog - I liked the clever title - since my Judaism is a very important part of my life, and though I have changed how I practice it over the years, my belief in God is a major facet of my life. This blog is just about me - and the ways that I feel - they are not necessarily religious in nature - I would love it if you would peruse my blog.  |
| I have not written for a day or so - but that does not mean that I have not written - I am trying to pen a poem each day or so. I am doing pretty good. To top that, I found my journal of poetry that a childhood mentor of mine gave me when I was 13 - and that was from the 70's - I feel so old now - in reading the journal - I realize that the more things change the more they stay the same - and yet I have changed - I sometimes wish I could go back to those times, knowing what I know now, and do it all differently - but I have been told by friends and family that I would have still done it the same way - oh well. Anyway, to make a long story short - I have taken some of them and quasi edited them and put them into a 'folder' on my port - so here it is.
I would love if people would also peruse my port and read my new and older stuff. I would really love feedback. Thanks ! |
| I have not written for a few days = I did not have the accessibility to the computer as I had hoped to - but that is OK - I had an OK weekend - sleeping a little too much, but having these great ideas for writings at these obscure hours. I submitted some new stuff - and would love everybody to peruse my port. I am only sorry that at the beginning it only shows 3 highlighted items and the 3 most recently written or edited items. I have many more than that - so..... I am back at work today, having some time to write - but... I picked up my assignment for my class this week - I am taking the fundamentals course as well as the orientation course which I guess is part of the package. I am doing OK, but I want to be Elizabeth Barrett Browning. Well, it does not hurt to dream. |
| I did not realize that in all of my writings I never actually described what I do for a living - one of the commenters on my blog had asked - I work as a job coach/generalist for a non-profit organization that helps mentally ill consumers get their lives back on track. I help them secure independent jobs through my connections and helping them write resumes and cover letters, as well as other things. In my absence, other things have transpired in my job, so others have picked up some of my duties. I am going to pick up some new duties, so that maybe I can get a different job. I had started this after I had been diagnosed with bipolar (at the time) and now with borderline personality disorder. But I would like to expand my consumer network. |
| I had some time now to write - I did not go to the Wednesday afternoon meeting at my job - it is hard to get down the steps to the auditorium where I need to be - I made it down last night to this room, for the meeting that I had to speak at last night, but my foot was hurting subsequently. Relatively speaking, I am not doing so bad with my leg, considering that two or three weeks ago I was in a wheelchair for the most part. I am glad that I am out of the hospital for the better weather - and was stuck in the hospital for the winter - where the weather was not particularly nice. |
| I am just checking in for today = I am trying to devote a little bit of time to the site every day - I wish I had as much time as I did when I was in the hospital- but I have to work - that is part of being a responsible human being. Nonetheless, I am reading and reviewing some newbies, and checking into my academy stuff. |
| I am back at work and enjoying it - I am making time for my writing - but I do not want to get caught on the site too much during work time. I submitted my assignment for class today - I wanted to make sure that it was handed in prior to the class' deadline. I really enjoy that class as well as the general academy class that I am taking. Tonight we are having a special meeting at work where I will be speaking on some of the work experiences that I have had over time and the importance of attendance and punctuality at work. In my previous life, these were not necessarily my strong suits, but I compensated with my excellent work performance. In the time that I was in the hospital, there were a lot of changes, all for the good made at my job - this gives me more outlets to do different things with what I am working at - plus the opportunity to look for different employment when my leg feels much better. I really do like working in social services, utilizing my administrative abilities. It was reinforced when I was in the nursing home, when I realized how much I really liked being around the older people - now I work with the mentally ill, and I get great satisfaction from what I do. But I think I will stay put for now, since I am still having some trouble walking - also I came back to realize that Microsoft is now Vista - a new and improved program that needs to be learned. I am usually quick to learn these things, but.... My Passover holidays were very nice - I spent the ritual Seder meals with family and friends and I enjoyed it immensely - I did not expect to have a great time this year, because I was not feeling so great, but I had a nice time despite myself. |
| I finally am out of the hospital - I got out on Friday and am returning to work today. I have been a little crazed all week which is why I have not posted as much as I would like to. Things are going pretty good though - I am walking OK, though I walk with the cane, and still have to manage with cabs. It is weird to be out of the hospital, and now have to go back to a regular routine - whatever a regular routine is. I will hopefully be able to post on a regular basis, and be active on a regular basis, as I have internet access at work (but of course I cannot be on line with this all the time instead of my job) - and I will hopefully be getting a laptop of my own soon. There are a couple of internet cafes in the neighborhood - but those are expensive. I just do not want to lose touch with this great site - and all that I have done with it - I am still taking the poetry course and am loving it to death. This weekend is Passover, so I am going to be spending it with friends and family. It is a holiday of great ritual and lots of food - and I love that. But I hopefully will be checking in over the weekend. |
| I had a very nice day today - I am counting the hours now to go home - I am scared but excited nonetheless. I have to restructure my life yet again. I like things to be the same way all the time. I hate change. I think that has something to do with my borderline personality disorder, but maybe not. That being said, I still do not like change. I am a creature of habit. I like to eat the same foods all the time, at the same restaurants, do the same thing. Even my desk is like that - if somebody rerranges my desk at work, I go postal. Walking is difficult, but at least I can. I walk with a cane, as I have said a million times in this blog, but I am trying for little steps to go without any assistive device. I get nervous when I think of going back to Manhattan. The streets are very broken and there are potholes and other such things - and well, I am a klutz. But everybody is telling me not to get all crazy about it - everything will be OK. I would like to believe that - I am going to go home with a whole new attitude on life. Everything is going to be great - and I am grateful to my writing for a lot of that. I handed in my first assignment for the Fundamentals of Poetry class - I did OK - and I made the revisions that were necessary. Hopefully, I will get better as I learn more - there is so much for me to learn - I am loving it so much - and the teachers and classmates are great. Now that I have edited it and it has been graded, I would like people to look at it - It is
It is based on an experience I had with an African American woman in the nursing home who was a patient. She is blind, but has more ' p & v' than I will ever have. Yesterday had a party here for her for her 90th birthday - they brought all kinds of Southern food and invited me to join. I was so flattered. I was telling them about the experience I had with her last week, where she had to hold on to my chair to keep balance until the certified nursing assistant came back - and she started dancing - all of us just started to cry. I do not think I will ever forget that incident. |
| I got my real cane today; the one that I will take home when I go home on Monday. I can not wait to go home, although the anxiety is starting to set in. I have so gotten used to this crazy routine. But I am looking forward to things that I can do with my life once I am home. I will definately continue my writing, for it has brought me so much pleasure. I have gotten a lot of great reviews for my work, even the ones that did not get awardicons (I only got 2, which is a lot). I am enjoying the class that I am learning in and can not wait to learn more. I will be doing an online Bible study with some friends from my new synagogue. My friend just recently became the rabbi of the synagogue - the synagogue that had the Chanukah party that I missed when I fell. Oh well... I also missed her installation, but I am looking forward to going to the synagogue to see her and my friends. I will be spending part of the Passover holiday with her. Also, I am hoping to do some meditation to calm myself down and keep myself on an even keel. There are a couple of different internet sites that I have registered with, where they go over some techniques. And yes, I have to go back to work - I do not know how soon I will go back, but I am definately going to go visit within the next week or so. I miss my friends from work and my co-workers. |
| Today was a really good day - I trained with the quad cane and the physical therapist and I went outside to practice walking in the streets. New York streets can be very tricky, because they are often broken, so I was nervous. But I did good nonetheless. We practiced the curbs too - and that was scary - but I did really good with this. I am very determined. When I get out of the hospital, I do not want to be so sedentary as I was before - I know it will be one step at a time, but I need to do this. I believe this is one step in taking control of my life. |
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. I am glad you and your ex are not hating each other, so this is good. I hope your writing is well!
I LOVE THAT BLOG TITLE! You and this blog are supposed to be here.
