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Welcome to Marcia's World: I believe there's still hope A place where I hope to feel safe enough to reveal my wants needs, desires, and dreams and maybe even my deepest fears and my best kept secrets. After all; I'm supposed to to find trust somewhere, right? Life can't be full of all heartache can it? My happily ever after might still be out there looking for me, right? They say it's never to late so, hey, I will keep an open mind and keep praying. My children are all grown. There's a bit of a monkey wrench so to speak. I have cerebral palsy. I was born with it. Now, please, don't get all, oh, I'm so sorry on me. I love being me.  I've never let my CP define me. Sadly, it does make people run the other way as far as relationships go. My CP only affects my walking. I walk with quad canes. I have a fear of falling so if there's going to be a lot of walking, I use a manual or motorized wheelchair. Due to my CP; I have an extreme amount of patience unless stupidity is involved...I might have to save that explanation for a whole topic by itself... Shakes head and laughs!  I Love: Chocolate, Teddy bears, Smiley faces, Peanut butter and Chocolate(together), Making other people feel good about who they are, Being a Mom, Being a Mom Mom, Country Music, Martina McBride (She inspire's me daily) Another subject worthy of it's own topic. I will take a moment though and direct you to an amazing video.  My most recent favorite song on Her most recent album Everlasting [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] Perfect By Martina McBride Singing, My family, My Children (3)—Andrew (29), Amy (25) Matthew (23), My Grandchildren (2)—Brandon (9) Evan (2) I baby sit him everyday from 9 -4 p.m. while his Mommy and Daddy both work. I came to writing.com with a mission in mind. I believe I was led here by God to help others and to write my life story"Invalid Item"  It's all still in the beginning stages, but I have a very strong faith and truly believe that everything in life happens for a reason. It's the reason I chose it as the title for my Life story Trilogy. I also, recently, began
Much Love and Respect to all my new friends and Neighbors~  Marcia  (CEREBRAL PALSY) ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only **
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Oh, my goodness I'm going to get to start my new home off with a bang. Most people today are going to think I am nuts, but I something that really gets under my skin and YES, DRIVES ME BONKERS is the use of the word F--- K! See, I can't even write it without cringing I refuse to even write the whole word in my precious home! UGH! Why, was that word ever invented?  To me profanity is NOT needed to express what you need to say, especially, what I will now refer to as the word that need not be said! I'm sure many folks will disagree with me and say I'm making a big deal out of nothing, but let me explain why I feel the way I feel. First, I'm a christen woman. I know I wouldn't say the word that need not be said! to my Heavenly Father. Second, I don't like the way the word that need not be said! sounds when it is spoken. Third, I think the word that need not be said! makes a gorgeous man or woman look ugly. My children used to think I was crazy when I made them give me a dollar if they said the word that need not be said! When My son Andrew's ex-girlfriend, who is mother of my first grand son, Brandon, talks the word that need not be said! it is every other word out of her mouth. My whole body just cringes. She knows I strongly dislike the word, but she's so used to saying it that she just lets it fly. She has gotten better over the years because of my talks with her. She's has a beautiful face and she has a good heart, but then she opens her mouth to speak and she cusses like a truck driver or a sailor, as they say, and to me; her beauty is tarnished. I guess this wouldn't bother some people, but it bothers me...  ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
Prompt:If all tablets and smart phones ceased working, how much impact would this have on your daily life and routines. This prompt is a good one. The truth is my daily routine would change greatly. I'm very very sad to admit that. As I look back at how the times have changed because of technology. I can't help wonder if the technology changes are a good thing or a bad thing. It makes me want to write a pro's and a con's list, but that's not what this prompt asks so for the moment I will hold off on that. Hmm, If my cellphone stopped working my family wouldn't have a way to call me if they had to because they don't have my house phone number because I've haven't given my land/house number. On top of that I don't even know what the number is. I can look it up on my cable bill though. We have a land line. We only have a land line because I need it because I have an emergency fallen and can't and get up box because I have cerebral palsy so I have to have it for my own safety. (Another Part of technology I'm thankful for) My kindle—I read a lot from my kindle/tablet so I'd be sad if it stopped working. I do still read regular books because I still enjoy holding a book in my hand. My kindle fire is like a mini computer I can take with me on the go. I love it! It's am amazing piece of technology. I was so excited when I first got mine. I cried. It was a gift from my children. I'm so blessed in so many ways. I may struggle physically to move everyday and I may feel little lonely in the romantic love part of my life right night, but I do have the best children in the world. They try everything they can to keep me smiling and happy in every other human possible way. What more could I ask for, Right? My smartphone- The Samsung Galaxy 4—Is also another one of my favorite toys. I figured out that it's an amazing camera. I play games on it too. I'm addicted to Hay Day! Never in a million years did I ever think I would get hooked on a game. Again, my kids laugh at me because I used to tease them about being hooked on a video game. So, yes, unfortunately, as sad as it is to say and admit  I must say if my smartphone and tablet ceased to work it would have an affect on my daily routine!  ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
What do you look forward to every week? I view life as a gift  therefore I view each day as a new gift. Every week I look forward to the blessings God has in store for me. I admit I lose sight of that at times and I get frustrated because I wake up sometimes in painlike today because of the rain Every inch of my body hurt. I, immediately, asked my daughter, Amy if she got the license plate of the Mac truck that hit me while I was sleeping she laughed and said "No, I'm sure you hurt because of the rain." As I laid there in bed this morning willing my body to move because I had to pee—SERIOUSLY—I gently reminded myself—How blessed I am. Pain and all. I have Three grown amazing children and 2 wonderful, awesome grandchildren.I think this song says it all! I thank God everyday for everything I am and will be! [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] song sung by: Martina McBride (she's touched my life in an amazing way. Her and her music inspires me daily.) |
Prompt: George and Martha Washington arrive at your home. What happens next? There's a knock at the door. Hmm, who could that be I'm not expecting anyone, but it's alright I enjoy having company. I'm a people person, I go to the door. I, gently, ask who is it? There's no reply so I look to see I can see who is standing on my doorstep. I'm a tiny 4 four foot 6 inches tall so of course I can't see out the peep hole or small window in the top of the door. My curiosity gets the better of me. I swing open the door to find President Washington and and his wife Martha staring back at me. I smile at them, widely, as I say may I help you? Yes, Ma'am, Martha sad, "We need somewhere safe to stay for the night. We were driving by and got a safe feeling from within me. I felt like you could be trusted. Do you mind if come in and talk?" I bowed my head, to silently ask the lord what he thought. Within seconds I was stepping aside for them to enter my home. My point is you never know when it may be, Heavenly Father, himself knocking on your door. In my lifetime I have helped a lot of people in many ways because this. Have I been judged by others because of my kind, nature? I sure have. It used to get under my skin. I've always tried to please everyone. I've learned the hard way I need to do what God has put me here on earth to do. I have to please him and only him. I'm happiest being what he created me to be; someone who loves to help others; even though I struggle everyday—I do it with an amazing smile!  [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] My theme song: Anyway By:Martina McBride ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
I am told there are 3 specific types: I am Type B, which is more relaxed and non-competitive. I'm a very patient person. It takes a lot to get me stressed out or angry. I think this comes from having to wait on other people to help me in one way or the other; most of my life. For many years I was independent. My body was very strong and I never let anything stop me from doing from doing what I needed or wanted to do. But, eventually, I had to admit I needed more help doing stuff that I cared to admit. That wasn't easy for me. I will not soon forget the day My oldest son, Andrew, was watching me walk. I guess it looked like I was struggling because he came up behind me; picked me up carried me the rest of the way to the chair I was walking to, as tears fell down my face. He said, I didn't want you to hurt any more. I don't drive so I have to wait on other people to take me where I need or want to go. I'm not able to get around as easy as I used to now that I'm older My walking become much slower and I need to have someone with me near me to make sure I don't fall. When I was younger I used to run around on my canes without even thinking twice about it. I guess as I've gotten older my body is catching up the fact that I've had a lot surgery and it's trying to tell me to slow down. I miss being able to do things for myself. I can't imagine not being anything, but patient when your caretakers have to do almost everything for you. Thankfully, I've never been the competitive type either. I'm so thankful to be loved by my amazing children who are my caregivers as they live their own lives as well I dedicate this song to my children with all my love always~Your Mother You're Gonna Be Sung By: Reba McEntire |
| This Weekend was a weekend that will forever remain in my memory I babysit my grandchildren while my oldest son, Andrew, and his girlfriend, Stephanie, work, Stephanie is the Mother of my youngest grandson Evan. My son also has an older son named, Brandon, he was my Christmas peasant on December 25th, 2004. He's nine years old. My son shares custody of him with his mother Brandy. They each have for a week at a time. When I lived with my son it was awesome because I got to see Brandon all the time but when Andrew moved in with Stephanie I had to adjust to only seeing Brandon once in a while. I was lost for a little while. Last night they invited me to dinner. We went to The Olive Garden. Pictures at the bottom show Brandon pushing me to The Olive Garden. I enjoyed the food, but most of all I enjoyed spending time with my son and his family. Brandon made me feel very wanted and loved. He was so excited to push my wheelchair. He kept saying. "Dad, I can do it!" Even after we ate and we were at going home, He said, "I want to stay over your house and spend time with you. Can I?" I smiled, at my son, as he was driving. "It's fine with me as long as you listen to Aunt Amy and Mom Mom, his dad said." You hear, Yeah! from a squealing Brandon from the back seat. As we pull up to my apartment Brandon jumps out of the back seat and says, " I want to help. I'll get the wheelchair dad. She's not just your Mom. She's My Mom Mom too." (WOW)I smile at my son, "He's growing up." Today, we spent the day playing board games together. When Stephanie came to pick him up he didn't want to leave. He said he wants to come back tomorrow. I love him with all my heart. |
Is It Easier To Read A Man's Mind Or A Woman's? Is It Easier To Read A Man's Mind Or A Woman's? I'd say it depends on how well you know the person regardless of whether they're a man or a woman. Personally, I don't think it has to do anything to do with a persons gender. I think it has to do with how comfortable and safe people feel around you as to whether they feel comfortable enough to be themselves around you and don't have to be someone they're not. I'm a people person I get along with almost everyone there are very few people I don't enjoy being around. Today is Valentine's Day Here's My NP Post for the Day, But I wanted to share it with all of my amazing friend here on Writing.com since this is my second Home so to speak. I don't have a Valentine in a the "Romantic" sense of the word because I still have't been lucky enough to find my soul-mate yet, but I have been blessed with three wonderful children as well as two amazing Grandchildren: Last night the conversation went like this when my son Andrew Bucella Cranmer and his children Brandon and Evan Cranmer came to visit... Me: "Come hug Mom Mom!" ALL came one by one to my room to hug me. Evan to Amy Wilson, My daughter "I'm going to see Mom Mom." Me: (As Evan runs into my arms and hugs me) "Who's going to be my Valentine this year?" Evan: "Me Mom Mom! Me!" (He's Three) Brandon squeals: From the living-room as he comes running to my bedroom "Me Mom Mom!" Conclusion: I have two Valentine's FYI Unconditional love is the best love anyone can ask for or need! Thank you Brandy Curry, Stephanie Novak, Andrew Bucella Cranmer, Amy Wilson, Matthew Wilson and all my family for giving me that! Happy Valentines Day! Mom, Marcia Belle Bucella [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] Valentine Sung By: Martina McBride I love you! My amazing www.writing.com friends who believe in me! ~Marcia |
Do I Wish Certain Days Would Never End ...And Why? Yes, I have several of these days. But, I know it's not possible to turn back time. But if I could I'd want to go back to October 26th so could re-live that incredibly amazing day with my best friend Heather all over again. We didn't sleep that night because we were so hyper and excited from the Martina McBride concert. We talked and sang all night long. When ever Heather and I spent time together we rarely slept because we enjoyed spending time together so much we always said we'd sleep when we were apart because our time together was special. We just understood each other in a way I think few people did. She accepted me for me and never saw my disability. In her eyes it was non-existent. She saw me as a person with real feelings and a real heart. I'd give anything in this world to have my best friend back in my life again. You can read the whole story here "Invalid Item" God has a plan I know this he needed my Angel baby more |
Do You Have A Favorite Puzzle? And A Little Non Prompt I'd like to begin this blog post with the Non Prompt part of my post. It seems to me like death has been a huge part of my life lately. I'm aware that death is a part of life. We're born and we're taught that eventually we all are going to die. When we get old right? Well, I'm learning that's not the case. From what I've learned. Tomorrow is never promised. It has nothing at all to do with your age. Or your health. It's pretty scary. You just never know. The only one thing I'm sure of is my salvation. I know that I'm going to heaven. I know that I'm going to live an eternal life. Forever. Please, make sure Jesus is your savior and he's a part of your life heart. Just ask him to forgive you for your sins.(Repent) With a sincere heart. Ask the holy spirit to live in your heart forever. Yes, My friends and it's that simple! Then you'll know you to will live in eternity forever with the Lord. This short life is just a stepping stone to bigger and better things to come in the promised Land and I'll be able to walk with no pain! ************** Okay, Onto my favorite puzzles... I enjoy Sudku I enjoy doing jigsaw puzzles as a family I also enjoy doing word searches I also like Puzzles called fill Ins Much love Always Marcia |
My Thoughts At The Moment I'm not even sure where I'm going to go with this post. All I know is I'm not liking anything lately and all I want to do is cry. I feel lost. I don't like how I feel. I'm. angry, I'm sad, I don't feel good. (I have a sore throat. It hurts to talk.) I don't even like myself lately. It feels like I'm in the way. Why do I feel this way? It's so not me. Damn it I wish I never had my hernia surgery. Before that surgery I could at least get around on my hands and knees and do some stuff for myself. Now, I can't. get on the floor so I've lost a lot of my independence. Most people won't understand that, but the floor was my natural habitat I did everything on my hands and knees. I cleaned my house on my hands and knees. I raised my children on my hands and knees. I did everything on my hands and knees like people that have good legs do things on their feet. I feel lost without that Independence I used to have. Years back when I asked my surgeon when I could get back on my hands and knees she said, I don't want you too. it's what caused the damage...I've tried to get on the floor, but my abdominal muscles are very weak. There has to be a way I can strengthen them. i'm not good at sit ups. I'm only 50 years old. I'm determined to find a way to get my independence back... |
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