%%USERNAME%%    %%ACCWORDS%% %%ONOFF%% |
 |   Created for the Blog Harbor from The Talent Pond and 30-Day Blogging Challenge |
|
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** This is my second blog that I have created mostly for the blogging challenges in Writing.Com. Here you can find all answers on different prompts, my personal opinions, combined with my ship experience. Blog is rated GC but it doesn't contain too much of controversial opinions or swearing. If you run across some entry that you find interesting feel free to leave your comments, I appreciate that a lot.  ![Merit Badge in Blog Camping
[Click For More Info]
Thank you for taking part in the August 2015 30-Day Blogging Challenge Summer Camp! Hope you had fun and made some friends!](https://images.Writing.Com/imgs/writing.com/writers/badges/group-Blog_Camping-1788309_13.gif) ![Merit Badge in Blogging
[Click For More Info]
For completing at least 25 blog entries in the March (2014) Memory Lane Challenge: Movies & TV Edition from [Link To Item #1700829] !](https://images.Writing.Com/imgs/writing.com/writers/badges/type-Blogging-2180.gif) BLOGGING GROUPS THAT I USE WITHIN THIS BLOG  "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS"  "Blog Harbor from The Talent Pond" "Welcome To My Reality Forum" "Invalid Item" PLEASE CHECK OUT AWESOME BLOGS OF FRIENDS OF MINE
 ~~
|
   BCOF- Do you agree with the adage “Write what you know”? I do agree with this mostly if we talk about NON fiction writers and the fact that they WANT to write. I still cannot understand people who say that they can write about some life experience that they have never been through. I mean, can you really write about that gay romance or drug addiction if you never venture into this kind of relationship? Can you write about mental illness if you are perfectly healthy person? Or, even if you do, how good and precise are you going to be? For NON fiction writing is necessary personal experience that cannot be learn from any books and for certainly you cannot Google one. On the other side there is fiction but here also you won't write something that you don't know of course. If you want to write about something that you don't know too much, you are going to do research, educate yourself and read before you do anything. To be a great writer you also need to be a great reader. So, either you put your feet on the internet and books or your hand into the fire it doesn't matter as long as you get all necessary information and experience. The conclusion is the same at the end- you will write what you know. ~~BLOG CITY- Your local electronics store has 3 new products: Time machine, a door that goes anywhere you want or a helmet that lets you see the future. You can only afford one. Which one do you choose? Ohh, I'm not a huge fan of electronic but I like this prompt. Let's see, I will start with things that I wouldn't get actually. For certainly I wouldn't like the door that goes anywhere because I've been there already and I didn't need any doors, I just needed dreams. I always think that every dream can become reality if you are persistent enough. I like this quote by Lady Gaga- “I used to walk down the street like I was a fucking star... I want people to walk around delusional about how great they can be - and then to fight so hard for it every day that the lie becomes the truth.” I believe that human can do anything as long as he really, really want to. Don't be afraid to dream about places because the more you do the more you get chance to see them. I have seen what I dreamed about since my elementary school because I never stopped dreaming that one day I will get there. I wouldn't get a helmet for future as well. I remember before there was this gypsy woman at the beach we used to go to before and she was like doing some divination and all my friends were excited about it. She was like reading the future from her cards and from your palm. I don't know why but I somehow don't believe in this kind of things, I think that no one can predict my future and it is just wasting money if you are searching for the people who think they can do that. I had a friend also who was doing some prediction for fun only. When she come over I used to make Turkish coffee for us because, when you drink Turkish coffee, at the bottom of your cup stays coffee grain and we just put it upside down for a while. Then she would take the cup and started to say some kind of things that she see in my cup. I remember that she told me how I'm full of some kind of words but it was unclear to her because I don't talk a lot in real life. I thought it was shit and it wasn't interesting anymore because she used to say that she doesn't see anything else in my cup. Little by little I didn't want her to do that to me anymore because it was boring. She couldn't understand why she saw words in my cups every time. Well, I guess now she knows why I had words there  .I would get time machine probably because I would want to go back in the past. I believe that most of the people desire this for the reason they want to fix some things or do something different if they fucked up some situation. I was a kid of 90's but I don't really know if I would love to go back there because my country was in war and it was dangerous world to live in. I would maybe like to go back in some time where I've never been to, like 30's or 70's. However, I wouldn't like to go back to some period for a longer time, I would just like to go back to specific time in history just to be part of it. I would like to go back in time when US President JFK was shot. I would like to see first moon landing. I would like to be part of the Renaissance period. I would love to see wedding of Princess Diana and Prince Charles. I would like to see fall of the Berlin wall. Options are countless. But, there are also things in past that I wouldn't like to see and I would use time machine to avoid them but there is so many of them to even mention. |
[Embed For Use By Upgraded+] BCOF- If you had a theme song that played every time you entered a room, what would it be? Who would sing your song? I cannot single out just one song, that's just impossible because there are million songs out there that I can relate to. So many times I said Oh, this is my song from now on until I hear another one from different band or even from different music genre and I totally forget the previous one. I never have song that is among all the others. However, this is interesting prompt because why would I have theme song every time I enter the room? I would feel like I'm entering a ballroom, you know like in Cinderella when she entered the ballroom and when courtier announced her Majesty or whatever. But then, it would probably sound like this which doesn't suit me very well because I am not a princess and I'm not from royal family . While I'm here now I'm thinking about UK Royal family. Do you think that they have music announcements when someone enter their parties or do they have courtier who will announce Prince William or Prince Harry for example entering the room while visiting Queen Elizabeth? Hmm..Anyway, as I said above, I don't think that I will ever have theme song played every time I enter the room just because there are so many songs out there and I relate to most of them depend on which mood I'm in. Maybe it would be awesome if all songs that I called mine can play every time I enter different room or what do you think if, for example I feel sad some day would it be okay to play my favorite sad song then? Or maybe my favorite song about frustration or hate when I feel like that? Then everyone in the room would know right away that they cannot mess with me if I have a bad day rather than reading it on my face. I think this is cool idea probably. I hope it makes sense to you. I linked song in my language above, 'Sinhro' by Serbian band 'Ekaterina Velika' because they were my favorite band while I was growing up. EKV to Serbia is the same like Joy Division to UK, they just started that movement and they are one of the most influential rock groups in our region. All members died in their early ages, starting with the singer who died out of pancreas cancer in the age of 44., the guy who played bass guitar died out of heart attack at the age of 39., woman who played keyboard died out of AIDS at the age of 44., and all other members who were part of building the band died out of AIDS as well. There is no person in our region who doesn't treasure memory on all of them. 'Sinhro' is my favorite song of this group and I listen to this every time I feel that I'm in love with something or someone. ~~BLOG CITY- Prompt: Does a human being’s urge to compete have anything to do with his narcissism, and why do people enjoy competitions so much? What are your thoughts on the subject? I never felt real urge to compete with anything. If I choose to compete sometimes though I do it mostly because of fun in the process. It also depend what the competition is all about. If it's about writing I will tell you that I like to enter different contests here and if it happens that I win that contest I won't enter it anymore just for the reason that I want other people to get the chance for winning. But, if I'm entering one contest since forever and I never win any place I will continue until I do so but not for the pleasure of being chosen among all the others, just for the reason that I know I improved myself or I improved my writing depend what contest is all about. That's kind of my philosophy when it comes about writing contests. On the other side there are different kind of competitions in real life and by this I mean every day's struggle with different kind of situations that we are put into. For example, people who suffer depression or any other mental illness for them every day is struggle, every day they compete against their thoughts and those who survive through another day are the winners I guess. It's in human nature to have that spirit of competing, it's like survival for the animals- eat or you will be eaten. Some people just have more conspicuous spirit maybe because they are more cautious and afraid of failure or that they will be eaten. I think that all of us have a little bit of narcissism in ourselves. IT's necessary for survival. |
BLOG CITY- Prompt: Could terrorism--local, national, or international—have roots in a person’s or a group’s cultural disorientation and psychological instability? What do you think starts this type of crazy behavior? I didn't want to blog on this theme today because my dad is really ill and I'm in some kind of shock because I think of cancer possibility. Second reason is that I don't discuss religion like, ever. Maybe this prompt doesn't have anything with religion but the word terrorism indicate Islam and Muslims. This is my first and the last writing on this theme. Religion and belief are two different terms that people seems to understand wrong these days. So, I am still not going to say a lot here because I don't want to open any kind of discussion on this theme, I simply have it enough. The world is full of hate and the best way to stop hate is to love people, all people. Not a single religion in the world approve any kind of terror and not a single holy book preach about terrorism and killing humanity. Terrorism is wrongfully interpreted life that we were born in. If you guys are unsure though, of what Islam is all about I suggest to you to read the whole Quran. If you don't have opportunity for such reading for some reason then I recommend to take 3. only 3 hours of your life and watch the movie about Mohammad, the last messenger from God and what he was standing for. I have found it on youtube but you can find it probably on some online sites for the movies. This youtube version has Bosnian translate but they speak in English. I have found it the most appropriate for you guys because you don't need to do any reading here and you don't need to listen speaking in Arabic language. Here is imdb where you can read some reviews as well The Message . If you see this movie I assure you that you won't become a Muslim or accept Islam but it will for certainly put some thoughts in you about what Islam really stands for. [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] ~~BCOF- Your smile lights up someone else's day I don't know how much of truth lies in this saying but it is not always like that. Not if you are working in customers service. Those of you who do work with people will understand me. I had a situations where a smile didn't help to light up no coffee yet mornings of my own guests, people who I had to take care about for several days. I understand mornings but I don't understand people who are having bad mornings who are trying to ruin good mornings to someone else. Anyway, as I said above, I am not really talkative today because of my father, I am seriously concerned for his health and I'm trying to not shake while I'm writing this. I'll try to say it in a different way. Instead your smile lights up someone's day I will say that your smile lights up MY day. But wait, that kind of sounds the same because I am also someone to someone. Here is one online conversation: He: "Because of these meds that I'm taking I feel like a zombie." She: "You are not a zombie." He: "Even they say that I look like a zombie." She: "You are not a zombie. As far as I know you don't eat human brains and you are not dead; you still talk, write and study. And plus, you don't know how to dance like Michael Jackson in the video Thriller ."He: "haha true." She: "You are not a zombie if my previous message curved your lips into smile." He: "haha :P." She: "Or this what I just said :)." |
Since today is Sunday and there is no prompt in BCOF and Blog City as well I decided to write about some random stuff. I am thinking to make this like regular prompt on Sundays but let's see what will happen the next weekend. The thing is this- I have this poetry book that I was reading lately and I want to present it to you guys as well. The story how I run into it is simple. When I was at the ship my guests were asking so many questions on my personal life every time we got into some sort of longer conversations. I guess that you Americans are really curious people  . Anyway, I didn't mind to talk about myself with them because I like conversations when meeting new people especially people who are from different countries or even different continent. When they were asking me is there anything else that I do instead of my ship's job I used to tell them that I write so I ended up sharing my facebook with them and giving my WdC account before I realize that I don't really have public writing here. Most of my items are restricted to registered users only. Anyway, that's how I got the idea on finding online site where they will be able to read some writing of mine because I don't want to change the access of my items here just for the reason I have some that I don't want anyone else to read except people on this site. So, I found one site where I submitted some of my poems and got my first comments on them. That's how I met Wilton Sovergein. As it usually goes, you read me and I'll read you, that is exactly what I did. I know a lot of people here who are excellent poets and poetess and we know that everyone has his/her own writing style, I have discovered one more. I love simple poetry that is beautifully written, I don't like to think about the meaning of poems but I do like to go deeper in it and to explore it more. I think that every poet wants to know how the readers feel about his writing and that is also something I hold onto while reviewing poetry pieces here. We talked a little and he said that he has published work so, I checked it out and bought it of course. Wilton's vocabulary swarm with poetic phrases that will make you warm around your heart. I was really amazed by his carefully chosen words in every poem I've read in his book. This is what is written at the back covers: Within the heart and mind of mankind is a mechanism for recognizing speech and language. Some people are born with a gift that allows them to create phrases that mean more than sum of the words. We call them Poets. This is a book by one such person. See how cleverly words can be combined to express passion, rage, wonder and all of the feelings that make us more than just a robots. Miscellaneous Debris Since we don't have prompt on Sundays I was thinking to grab the closest book and take out some random writing from there and to write about it. I don't know what the others are up to, I haven't checked yet but that was my plan for today. I had to tell this story so, whoever is reading this may have some kind of picture in his head on what is going on here. Since the closest book to my right hand now is Miscellaneous Debris (and yes, the second review that you see there is mine. I did product review on this here as well but that I will share at the bottom of this entry) I am going to take out one random poem from here and share it with all of you.~Prunus Persica~ Wilton Sovergein I've held my tension for so long Afterthoughts pique, over-zealous intensity Headaches numb my true existence I've told of persistence all along Till singular the day She cursed my tragedy dismayed Your faith in me is drupaceous Weaning sadness off slowly You are my tree of life Hold me with yellow hint Guide this lone wolf with Pink scented veins- Such a peach Have you ever compared a woman with a tree of life? I don't know what you readers think of this poem or comparisons in it, I've seen it like endless love that always grow no matter what. It's like seasons, like Autumn to be precise because we know that in Autumn nature dies but it is born again at Spring and it goes on and on for a centuries. Definition of prunus says- a tree or shrub of a large genus that includes many varieties grown for their spring blossom (cherry and almond) or for their fruit (plum, peach, and apricot). That's how he presented his affection here. The beginning of the poem reminds me on that Autumn part I talked about, he is talking about frustrations when it comes about her and in the last stanza he Spring again, saying that despite all that she 'cause in him she still means much more than that. That is how I saw this poem. Now, you guys know that I'm not native English speaker and that sometimes my English is not so shiny, maybe I've got it all wrong here, but I honestly think that poetry is not written to be decoded. Yes, we can discuss about it, maybe try to figure out what the writer wanted to say here but, the most important part is how it affects you and your views. I appreciate any feedback in comments bellow. Feel free to tell me that I'm wrong or agree with me, or maybe you have your own thoughts on what you read here. However it is I would like to know. Thanks for reading, I hope you enjoyed your Sunday, especially if you had off work day.
I've seen the world, lit it up As my stage now Channeling angels in the new age now Hot summer days, rock 'n' roll The way you play for me at your show And all the ways I got to know Your pretty face and electric soul |
|||||||||||||
BCOF- What tips do you have for bloggers? ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** check out my "Invalid Item" for more I have a lot of tips for bloggers but it depend on what are you asking exactly. Are you asking what kind of tips I have for bloggers who want their entries to be read and commented here in WdC? Are you asking what kind of tips I have for bloggers who wants to get right audience for their blogs? Are you asking what kind of tips I have for bloggers on what they supposed to blog about? Are you asking what tips I have for those who are having offsite blogs?Sometimes you make me confused, Charlie  . Anyway, I guess that your prompt include all of these questions that I said above so I will try to make a list of combined things that one blogger (as per my opinion) should at least consider, if not follow. So, here we go: There's a lot of members in WdC who are having blogs in their portfolios but they are not part of any blogging group here. I guess that some blogs are just personal journals that people are having since forever. Old school journals (notebook and pen) are just transferred to our computers and of course to online writing site such as Writing.Com. This group of bloggers are not seeking for reading or commenting because they just feel need to write things from their lives that are too personal to be discussed within some blogging group. A friend told me I'm writing my journal because some day maybe I can forget my life. I have that kind of blog, "Invalid Item" , where I don't seek for readers or comments. I think that everyone should have personal journal, either old school or online. However, from my personal online experience tips that I can offer on this blog is that in your blog item body you should indicate what kind of writing you keep in there so, when someone run across and decide to review they cannot say things like I don't have an idea what are you talking about here. Your story doesn't make sense, it doesn't have the beginning and I was confused about your characters. Thank you for sharing but there is much more that you could say here-  rating. What in the fuck??!! Also, if inappropriate rating is bothering you simply change the setting of your blog for reviews only. If you ever run across these kind of blogs anywhere I think you should consider fact that you cannot just like that offer review on someone's personal life.For all of these people who are part of any blogging group here, if you guys seek for commenting and reading of your blog you should read and comment on blogs from your colleagues who are in the same blogging group like you as well. Common sense. I wanted to join BCOF long time ago but I was away because work. I think that someone even added me randomly to this group a month ago, I don't really remember. I know that I have sent request to join Blog City few days ago. Anyway, the point is when I fan'd BCOF forum I saw that Lyn's a sly fox  mentioned it in forum page under number 5. Why you join blogging group and then never participate? Right?I love brevity in almost everything but it has to be with taste otherwise your blog entry is just your grocery list, literally. I know that people are busy or whatever but within five minutes of blogging every day you can write more than 5.sentences and answer the given prompt. Sometimes I have a feeling, when I see short entries, that someone forced you to answer the prompt because you seem so uninterested about it and it's like you just want to answer the question. I think that blogging is much more than that. Correct me if I'm wrong but I like to discuss about specific things and opinions and sometimes I find it hard because I cannot find things to talk about within those 5. sentences. So, yeah, if you have brevity it has to be with taste. Now, on the other hand you don't need to be like me here. I mean, check all these words in this entry. I don't think that people will even read all of this. So, there should be some golden midst and balance.I think that is fine if within your blogging you include some random stuff from your personal life because a lot of people like to read what is going on with you but, you need to know how to make them love you here. You cannot just say things like Oh, I woke up this morning and went to throw the garbage and it was so cold outside because obviously this is not interesting and no one really cares that you throw the garbage and it was cold outside. I think that people also don't like too much drama in your life. Actually, they love it at the beginning but if you continuously talking how miserable things are in your life it's very possible that you will start to loose audience. So, here I would suggest to draw the line between drama and too much drama, throw some randomly fun stuff in here, your personal experience on given prompt and you should be just fine. We are all writers here at the end, we know how to spice up our stories and make them interesting.Tips on getting right audience for your blog. I will talk about blogs that we have here now. Every blogger who cares about getting audience for his blog knows that he should promote his blog so very often. Either with sharing it in his own newsfeed or commenting on the other blogs indicating what you wrote about in yours. Whenever you share in newsfeed that you added new entry in your blog, it usually shows up on the top of your page when you save entry, you need to take care little bit more about that feature. In WdC when you save the new entry you have that option to share it right away in your newsfeed and it looks like this:I've added new entry to my blog "Invalid Item" "Invalid Entry" As much as you think that sharing your new posted entry is excellent promotion that much you need to take care to do it in the right way. What I'm saying is, if you are choosing this option of sharing your blog first thing that you need to have here is interesting title of your blog and interesting title of your current entry that WILL drag the others to click on those links and read your blog entries. While scrolling down public newsfeed I have seen so many blog entries with the title like 5/12/2015. What does this title say about that blog entry? I have no freaking idea because I, personally, never clicked on such links to read what the writer is talking about. If you think that your title doesn't contain enough info to drag the readers from public newsfeed then write bellow your entry what is it all about and what kind of writing we can find inside if we decide to click on your entry. Next thing that is wishful within one blog entry are pictures, links to various offsite and onsite writing, I saw some people include various tests and quizzes that they took for fun or something. That all makes your blog more attractive. Of course, that also needs to be with taste. I don't know how many people here pay attention to personalization (I hope that this is a word) of their blogs but I like to see that people use different tools and site like Writing.Com have a lot of pretty cool tools that can make your blogs to look even more pretty. You can use various font types, different colors of letters, emoticons, photos, you can justify your text, you can tag some of your friends if you want them to read what you wrote about. I tagged Lyn's a sly fox here and I just mentioned Charlie ~  at the beginning but I'll tag him. One more thing also, when I just joined the site my public newsfeed content was E rated if I remember. Of course that I could see only posts from people whose personal notebook was E rated and I don't know how many of them we have here. But, if you set your public newsfeed to GC and bellow you will be able to see all posts in public newsfeed. If you want to change this feature just go to community, click on community newsfeed and in the upper right corner you will see E, or ASR, depend what is your public newsfeed setting. Click on that and set your public newsfeed to GC and bellow. That way you will have more access to all posts from people whose personal notebook is set to GC or bellow. That is one more nice way to notice and to be noticed when you post your writing in the newsfeed.If you have offsite blog on the sites like WordPress , Weebly or similar one, you know that they will charge you monthly. I am not really sure how it all works because I don't have one of these but it is also common sense that, if you are going to pay for this blog then you need to know why you are paying for it. You are not paying it of course to write five sentences on given prompt of course, you would need to be more serious about it. Some people are promoting their work like that, some people are sharing extended opinions on some world themes, anything that is worth of reading in your opinion goes there. Now I can talk forever on this theme but this blog entry is already too long. I'll just remind you that, if you are seeking right audience for your offsite blog it is fine to share it here or any other social network, additionally saying what people can find in that blog and what kind of opinions you are sharing there. These are some kind of basics when it comes about tips for bloggers. I wouldn't talk about it anymore because my entry is already too long and I have to write about prompt from Blog City. If we're going to have another similar prompt I'll try to add more different tips on this theme. Till then I have found 16.Top Tips from Blogging Experts to Beginners that I have found really helpful to those who take blogging more seriously.~~What is your kryptonite and why does it have power over you? Can it be a person? I am so weak at one person and I have no idea why. Maybe he put some spells on me or something, I don't really know. I am very stubborn person in real life and I don't really give a shit if you are trying to prove to me something that I think is wrong in my opinion. But oh man, if he say or do something... he gets me. Every. Single. Time. I feel like I don't have rights to say he is wrong not because I think that I'm stupid but because he just makes me think about his words and actions and it always turns out that he is right. You can look at it as abusive relationship where one person has full control over the other one. I don't know if that is healthy because sometimes it seems like it is not so great to depend of someone but I somehow enjoy in it just for the reason that only he can do something that no one else can. It is really hard to explain but don't worry, we are not killing each other or anything like that, he is just someone who is keeping me down to Earth. That's all for now. Enjoy your weekend guys! ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
BCOF- Do you believe you need to know sadness in order to appreciate happiness? Isn't it always like that in life? I've heard so many people say things like you have to appreciate what you have now because maybe you won't have it later on. Even if it's true that's like making someone feels bad about having things and also that doesn't mean that you're going to loose something if you have it. It is bugging me and it totally sounds awful the fact that someone needs to know sadness in order to appreciate happiness. It also makes me think about something that I've heard so many times like, "oh, don't be too happy about it, too much of happiness always bring sadness," which is from the same family of quotes like the sentence from above and it has such an impact on my personal life. I don't really remember when was the last time I was so happy about something because I always have in mind that I am going to get sad later and it always turns out to be true. I think I restrict myself since forever. I thought of people whose sadness needs medical attention as well. It is not really always that easy to overcome such things and start to appreciate light at the end of the tunnel for the sake of sinking down again. Most of the people also don't know what is happiness because they didn't feel it in the right way. There are also people who doesn't know how to start to cherish good memories and appreciate happy moments they had before they became sorrowful. Sometimes is hard to accept fact that you will never be happy like then anymore and you stay sorrowful for a longer period of time. I don't ever agree that people needs to feel sadness to appreciate happiness because you never know if someone can do it or not. I personally think that we should just try to make the best of the moments in life not because we will get sad about them at some point but because they are unique and we will never have those moments with anyone anymore and that is not sad thing after all. ~~BLOG CITY- Mother Thesesa said, "Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls." Who do you hope to catch in your net this week? I love Mother Teresa's quotes because they are mostly about random act of kindness and how small steps that you make can change the entire journey. This is one that I really like from her If you can't feed a hundred people, then feed just one. If everyone do this we wouldn't have so much hunger in the world. I'm trying to catch souls in my love net every single day of my life. Sometimes is little bit hard because people are careful and they see the danger coming  and sometimes it goes smoothly . I'm not really having anything specific on my mind right now except building this strong magnetic net that will drag people in for one terrific reason: to make me happy. No matter how much bullshit there is in this sentence right now but I am happy when I see that people are happy and content with me. I don't care about presents (just sometimes because there is no person in the world who doesn't like gifts ), I only care about feeling of happiness that someone receive from me and that is the only truth without pretending. I am a person that will kill you with kindness when you spit the fire in my direction not because I can't hate you too, just because I want you to see how wrong you are sometimes about your actions.Anyway, let's move to the love net because I have some guests coming and I don't have time to talk about it more. My love net for this week will be my reviewing group/forum that I opened December 1st. I'm looking forward to succeed with number of participants so, if you read this blog entry feel free to check it out. I swear I won't eat you. Here is the link:
|
Artist: 30 Seconds To Mars Album: A Beautiful Lie Song: A beautiful Lie [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] Lyrics Sup guys? I've decided to blog little bit today because, guess what? I sooooo miss blogging and I can't wait this month of NaNo to finish. I didn't follow any prompt today, this is just because I miss it and I've been thinking last night, before I went to sleep, to write this. I still have little bit of Charlie ~ in my fingers, since the last time we blogged for the StoryKids week but I'll try to prevent it, I promise . I couldn't prevent the beginning of the blog though and I just had to put this song in it because I've been listening to 30 Seconds To Mars since forever, plus, Jared Leto is cute and his songs are great. Anyway, I didn't want to blog about Jared and his vocal and other abilities of course, I wanted to talk about writing.So, I fell a sleep probably at 6:30 a.m this morning. I have a little bit difficult sleeping schedule and I don't know how to explain it. I'm not insomniac always, I can sleep but I don't sleep during the night. I have a problems with this in the first few weeks when I come back from the ship and I blame time differences here. It is just because I don't really have things to do now and I don't give a shit if I will fall a sleep at 6a.m. because I know that I don't need to go or to do anything when I wake up in the morning. Which sucks by the way. I wish I can have some kind of balance in my life. When I worked at the ship it was always too busy, I literally didn't have time to get my eyebrows done and I don't care if you don't believe me but it is like that. That does't mean that I looked like Big Foot though because I didn't, don't worry . I just wanna say that life there is passing by in seconds and you don't have time to catch a break and breathe.When I was away from WdC last year I really couldn't have done anything here. Last time when I left again, it was uhm...March this year I believe, I tried to manage it little bit more and all I could do was to finish blogging challenge from "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" , I think we were on Magical ship then. Well, I was at the ship, a real ship, but it wasn't Magical. My entries were written on the staircase number 190 on deck A where people were passing by every two minutes. My inspiration in that space and environment was fire extinguisher that was hanging on the wall in front of me. I don't remember how many times I've read labels on it. And while the others were hanging in a crew bar or something I was sitting just there because in my cabin I couldn't catch the WiFi because my cabin was right next to the watertight doors who were always closed and it felt like I live in a can. Watertight doors per Maritime Law have to be closed all the time except when we are docked so, yeah.. no signal or anything in my cabin. As I was sitting one night on the stairs two of my friends were talking to me while I was writing and they said that I should probably go with them to crew bar but I didn't really feel like that that night. Almost everyone, when we finish the night shift, go to crew bar to relax. I was sitting there for two hours I believe when they came back, because one of the guys was living in the same corridor as me and he had to pass by me to get to his cabin. When they saw me still sitting there, little bit drunk or whatever, they were like..WTF man? You're still here uhm...writing? I forgave them their mocking because they are really cool guys other than that. I stood up and went back to my cabin aka can. So yeah, I finished my blogging challenge that month and didn't hang around here so often anymore because also we have to pay for the internet at the ship and I had to sit on the staircases with the other people around me because no one who lived in the corridor didn't have WiFi access in their cabins. It looked like I'm in Starbucks or something. I can't write with all noise around me, especially because the others didn't come out to just sit and write, hang on facebook or anything like that. They were talking with their families on Skype or laughing, it was so annoying. I missed WdC so much that period. I think that even if I had WiFi access in my cabin I wouldn't hang here that much just because I was mostly tired and just wanted to sleep because I knew that I have to spend another 7. months of my life of constant work with literally no normal breaks. Sometimes I wanted to watch a movies or hang out with someone, talk and other stuff that people do. And that's what I did. Now, all I can do is to write because I don't have anything else to do. It would be great if inspiration stays with us during a whole day but you know and I know that it is just impossible. I long for that balance seriously. I miss to be at the ship and I miss my job but I know how crazy it was and I don't really have plans to go back to it again. At least not for now. But, I also don't want to have plenty of free time because I'm working since I was 18. years old and I just can't be without job. A normal job, by the way, the one where you go home after you finish shift and when you have normal free time that you will spend with someone you care about the most. Sometimes I think that I will never have normal job anymore because of my sea legs. Job at the ship helped me little bit to not think about stuff too much, especially at night because my metabolism was in high speed and I had to work during a whole day, every day. I didn't even have time to think about anything except job and guests. It was so frustrating sometimes because I wanted to write and get some inspiration but I couldn't find anything. I was mostly frustrated in the morning because I am not morning person at all. With or without coffee just... please leave me alone because I am miserable in the morning. With this thought I am finally moving to the theme of my blog today. All 'good' writers write at night because people believe that is the time when inspiration comes the most and all greatest pages were written between 11 p.m. and 3 a.m. Okay, probably it is like that because there is more people who can relate to this than those who cannot relate. I can't, by the way and here is the reason why. I still hold onto fact that I don't think that all writers are sad, I think it's the other way around; all sad people write. I drown myself in sorrow and grief at night, especially if I'm alone, just to wake up miserable in the morning and put all my frustrations on the paper. Sometimes my writing is not sad but it is written when I felt sad. I never wrote anything when I was happy. I'm not a happy person, I am fine but I'm not happy and I don't think that I will ever be anymore. I think that the best pages are not written between 11 p.m. and 3 a.m., I think that the best pages are written when you have inspiration. The thing is, people are finding inspiration in different situations and things from every day life and they write when it feels right about it. I mostly rip myself before I write anything because of the feeling of relief when I get it done. I write in the morning because I want writing to be the first thing that I will do as soon as I open my eyes. I write in the morning so I can easily go through the day. I think that my school days have something with it as well. When I was at school I never studied at night like most of my friends. My mom was like- when you finish your studying tonight put the book under your pillow so the words can stay in your head. I did that actually and it didn't work with me. I found out that my memory is full if I study in the morning because when I did it at night I couldn't remember anything as soon as I open my eyes. I get frustrated in the morning and open the book again and right then I fill up my mind. I was a really good student by the way. Morning pages are my favorite writing because nights are for cuddling and nothing else, even when you can't sleep  . When I don't have cuddle buddy I also like to read not because I want to learn something but because it makes me relaxed. I mostly like to read horror things before sleep or even watch a horror movie. I like to search for something that will scare me because it is not easy to make me horrified by such things. I just find it interesting. Any recommendation by the way? O Em Ge, look at all these words from above. That much I need to meet my goal for NaNo this year. I should probably throw myself to it as well now while I'm still frustrated. I hate yesterday's day because I was reading messages from Richard and got mean reds again. I was adding words to my novel and wanted to add some of his words that he said to me and I remembered that I have all his messages still. I don't know what the fuck was wrong with me to get back to it again. It was awful but I don't have heart to delete them. That is the only thing what's left at the end. Some of them are not so inspirational but there is one where he said that I should take care about myself more so I can easily take care about the other people around me. I hold onto these words most of the time when I get sad and I remember them every single time. Except when you see that I wrote something totally miserable and down either in my other blog or in a poem. Other than that you will never see me complain. |
| MY DREAM HOME When you say my dream home many people instantly think of how their house or the apartment should look like. Definition of home per wikipedia is basically just that, a place used as permanent residence of individual, family and even several families that live together in tribe. But then, there's this other definition when you say home; that's where your heart belong. I don't know how many of you agree with one or another, I will try to combine both definitions in order to picture you my vision of place from my dreams. When I was a teenager I thought that New York City is exactly what I want when it comes about living. Don't ask me why because I'm not sure also. I always felt that I don't belong to the place I lived in, like, I was the outsider of my own life. Then I went to work at the cruise ship. From the outsider's perspective, working on the cruise ship seems like a dream job. What could be more glamorous than being payed for traveling the world and having food and sleeps for free? But, you also have a nightmares sometimes, right? I'm not gonna say that living on a cruise ship is completely nightmare because it is not. That is for certainly awesome experience that individual can go through in his entire life and I'm so happy that life chose me to be part of it. Sometimes I think that I can't live on land anymore and that scares me a lot. I've got these sea legs and, if the floor is not moving while I'm walking down the street, I feel like something is wrong while the only thing that is wrong here is me. I remember one of my friends from the teenhood, he was my boyfriend kind of. We weren't really together, we just hooked up a little bit and one day we were walking at some forest. I think it was spring time or something because I remember the weather was chilly and my friends wanted to have a BBQ at this guy's weekend cottage. I love walks through the forest, my sister studied biology and I was collecting plants for herbarium with her before. Anyway, while the others were setting up the fire the guy and I went to collect some wood and we came out to some huge field. There was a fence and we didn't want to cross inside because we didn't know whose field is that. There was nothing but the empty land and the grass was cut short. He had a walkman  with him and we were listening to music. I know, I know, old school. I am a kid of 90's, we didn't have any MP3 players or anything like that . I remember that we stopped there to take a rest and we sat on the fence. I told him that I would like to have house just there on that field, and that I would like him to be my husband with who I would have two kids. I know that a dog also fitted in this dream and some nice garden with flowers. I don't know if he got scared of that thought but he didn't say anything . he just kissed me and said that we should probably go back. That's when I woke up. I didn't see him for a while already now. I don't know where he is and what is he doing in life now, we are not friends anymore. But, I will never forget this forest day. Hmm.. he must be frightened.I have this feeling of belonging to someone for a long time. I had it even before I met Richard. When we were together I didn't want to be anywhere else but in his arms. I probably sound too romantic now but that's what I really felt. I had bads in my life when we were together and I'm the type of a person who will cry even for the small things. He hated this the most but he was mostly there to hug me when I had blues or when I complained on life overall. When I was a baby I was fat and my mom says that all of her friends wanted to cuddle me and kiss my cheeks or whatever but she never let anyone to do that. I have no idea why, I know that she also never kiss anyone's kids in their cheeks but she do cuddle them. So, as I grew up I hated when someone is trying to hug me for non reason or when someone is messing with me or even with my hair. In the worse case people would get slap in a face if they just found interesting my annoyance. That is weird though because I like to hug random people for just random things. When I was at the ship it was totally alright to lean on a stranger's shoulder while you're on lunch or smoke break. I didn't lean or cuddle with anyone just like that but I had few friends who would even hold my hand if we go for a drink in the crew bar. Sometimes those were girl friends and sometimes guys. When Richard left I completely lost myself. I had to cry alone or complain only to myself. I hate to be alone because I love people. I love to know that someone is breathing in the same room as me or when I can touch someone who would touch me back. I don't know if you understand me on this though, I just don't like dead things. When he left I didn't feel that I belong to anyone anymore. There was a few men who came to my life after him but I never got that feeling of belonging. One night when we were fighting about something he told me, "Do you really think that you have me?" I was so sad after he said that because I knew he had me completely so, when he left, he took that part of me with him. You read stuff like this in your romantic books, I read stuff like this in my chests. Wherever he is now I know that part of me is with him always. So, I literally live in the place where he is. I never dream dreams that I cannot reach and I never dream a lot of things at one time because I don't like to collect them. Sometimes you feel like loosing a track of them so it's better to dream one dream at the time. If anyone told me that I will spend my summer at some Caribbean island I would laugh out loud and told him that is the most craziest thing I have ever heard. But I did it actually and I don't think that's crazy. To summarize everything that I said above- my dream home is New York, with someone who won't make me annoyed while messing up with my hair and who will never never make me loose myself again but whip up scattered pieces of my soul. Are you deranged like me? Are you strange like me? Lighting matches just to swallow up the flame like me? Do you call yourself a fucking hurricane like me? Pointing fingers cause you'll never take the blame like me? ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Story written for home/garden MB in "Invalid Item" |
| ASSIGNMENT: Write a character introduction for a protagonist, antagonist, or other major character in a script. Challenge yourself to try and give us an informative and/or entertaining snapshot of this character in five lines (approx. 50 words) or less. Sherly, fat and ugly twenty something girl, wasn't something he expected to meet at his first blind date. |
| "Nice scooter, freak!" Guys in red cabriolet were screaming while passing by on the highway. "Oh, SHUDDUP! It's not a scooter, it's a motorcycle. And it's totally MANly."  Stupid teenagers.I hardly managed to get on time to the airport. After checking in I've got the seat by the window, next to the old woman who was sniveling at my shoulder all the time.  Mr.Rourke: "Whoa!! You arrived like that?" Deadpool: "Like what?" Mr.Rourke: "I mean..the suit. Isn't it too tight for this weather?" Deadpool: "I'm Marvel, what did you expect?" Mr. Rourke: "Nothing. I just thought...nevermind." Deadpool: "Rourke, right?" Mr. Rourke: "Yes?" Deadpool: "Mr. Rourke, this is how I really look like without the suit." Taking out the costume from my head. Skin cancer covered almost every part of it. Mr. Rourke: "Ouch!! You look like topographical map of Utah." Deadpool: "Exactly!" putting the mask on again Mr. Rourke: checking the guest list "You're....Deadpoo, right?" Deadpool: "Haha..you know another couple of funny words?" Mr. Rourke: "Not at this moment." laugh Mr. Rourke: "How about Wade Wilson, member of X-Force and the Thunderbolts and a self-professed member of the X-Man and Avengers?" Mr. Rourke: "Ohhh, I've got it now!" checking the guest list "Anyway, welcome to the Fantasy Island. I'm sure you don't wanna share that pretty face with anyone so I got you a single cabin. You'll be in 26. If you get lonely just check your neighbors Vixen Wolf and Mighty Thor " passing by the key Deadpool: "If I get lonely.. I'll just get tacos!" Mr Rourke: "That is fine, too." laugh While passing by the Organic Garden (see the map of Fantasy Island  ) I spotted Vampy who just came as well.Deadpool: "What time do you have on that watch?" Vampy: "It' says that it's time for drink!" Deadpool: "Shall we then?" Vampy: "Are you inviting me for drink Mr. Red-Tight suit?" Deadpool: "I sure do, Mrs. Modern vamp!" smile Vampy: "I hope Mr. Bones will arrive soon as well." |
View Portfolio
Visit Notebook
Send Gift Points
Awards
Badges
Send Email
Community Newsfeed
General Discussion
Book of Trinkets
Static Items
Books
Groups
Interactive Stories
Audio
Campfire Creatives
Community Notes
Crossword Puzzles
Documents
Folders
Images
In & Outs
Madlibs
Photo Albums
Polls
Product Reviews
Quizzes
Survey Forms
Web Pages
Word Searches
But I would've been too embarrassed. 
I love this sentiment and this look into your mom and your own past. I bet it's crazy to have that money and means now not to limit yourself when you on in a store and I can see your mom grabbing what she pleases because she can. Having such a choke hold on your finances for necessity can make it a breath breathed to do what you want. Thank you for sharing this with us and I agree with 
