My Journal

Sunday-October 27

Today was intresting...not bad, not awesome, I HATE to say mediocre because today was the last day of the workshop, and that was AMAZING. It's just...I don't even know. I danced tonight in my room, just danced! Have you ever been in your room and heard a song and completely let loose? I did, for the first time in too long. I just let go, but the way I felt..it came out so frustrated! I wanted to cry, really cry, bawl my eyes out, and I don't even know why! I'm so confused, and I don't even know what it's about (Ok that's a lie..I do know but I HATE myself for feeling this way! It's also possible that my friends will read this, so I can't say here). I somtimes feel so alienated from everything around me, like somehow it can't affect me. I'm outside of it or somthing. Like I'm whatching everything that happens to me (being my regular me) from the outside and wondering "who is this?" I must sound incredibly insane to all the people who read this, which can't be many, but I promise, I'm perfectly sane. My life basically resembles the song "Iris" by the goo goo dolls. If you havn't heard it, get the cd. It's late and I have school tomarrow. If you know how I'm feeling at the moment please let me know. Ta ta, the best to you all!