Varying Shades of Gray - My Life

05-19-03

Where do I begin? Well, things are better between AW and DA, now. At least that is one thing that is going right, right now. AW, even gave me a hug the other day and said, "I love you, Storm". Yeah, that about sent me into orbit. LOL. But, I am glad that at least he is accepting me for who I am, and that I really do care.

Now, on a more personal note, have you ever just felt like you were TOTALLY unworthy of anything, anyone, or their love, devotion, or admiration? I don't know. maybe it's just that friggin' time again. I do NOT deserve JC. I do NOT deserve BOH. I do not deserve DA, JMC, AW or anyone else. I am a f***ing failure in life. I have no real future. Sometimes, I think it would just be better if I did just "quit" existing.

Sorry for the brief and somewhat sad and depressing post. (Hell, maybe some of you are looking forward to the end.)

I Wish you all, the best in life and love and happiness, to all. Have a good day.