The Thought's of Me!

The Weakness In Me

The Weakness In Me
I'm not the sort of person
Who falls
In and quickly out of love
But to you I gave my affection
Right from the start

I have a lover
Who loves me
How could I break such a heart
Yet still you get my attention

Why do you come here
When you know I've got trouble enough
Why do you call me
When you know I can't answer the phone

Make me lie
When I don't want to
And make someone else
Some kind of an unknowing fool
You make me stay
When I should not
Are you so strong
Or is all the weakness in me

Why do you come here
And pretend to be just passing by
When I mean to see you
And I mean to hold you
Tightly

Feeling guilty
Worried
Waking from tormented sleep
This old love has me bound
But the new love cuts deep

If I choose now
I'll lose out
One of you has to fall
And I need you
And you
--Joan Armatrading

Another wonderful piece of must off of the "10 Things I Hate About You" soundtrack. That particular song is one of my favorites, and has a deep meaning to me. It's absolutely beautiful when you hear it with the music.

Finally...School is over! Now, I'm going to take the time to evalute my life, just like I usually do before I new year. I think, that some things are going to change for the year 2004. I'm really tired of being somebody I'm not...Basically, I pretty much have my New Year's Resolution already made.

Still trying to come up with a conclusion for that decision I mentioned in the previous entry. Though, it might take longer than I ordinarily thought. However, I'm pretty that if you give me hmmm...Two months...I'll have it all figured out. So, let's hope that I can look deep within myself and figure out what have to do.

Not to sound selfish or anything, but when I do come to a decision; it'll be the thing that benefits me the most. See, for quite sometime I've been other's before myself. Some people will say that's the way to do it, but I've done it for long enough. It's time to start taking MY life into consideration. Does that make sense? I hope it does... I guess the people around me will just have to deal with it. However, I'm pretty sure that some people I know won't like the outcome of my decision. But hey, it's damn hard to please everybody.

Well, I'm off to go and well..Do something! I wish all of you a happy holiday may you be Christian, Hindu, Jewish, Pagan, or your own personal religion!

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"But there's no wood!"
--Famous words from the mouth of Hermoine Granger