My True Soul

New Year Resolution #2

I went to the Bookstore, no luck. I think talking to this girl is just one of these things I have to do, not because I like her so much, it's just a part of me growing.

New Year's Resoulution # 2
2. Drink less regular cokes - more water/juices/milk. Of course, I will not be able to totally give up Dr. Pepper, it's impossible. *hugs a Dr. Pepper bottle*

I also want to revamp certain physical things about myself. I shall figure this out more along the way. Right now, it's all a bit fuzzy.

I want to figure out if I'm really that good of a person or not. I want to be able to understand why people tell me I'm funny. And why certain people think I'm nice and sweet. Or maybe, I never will. Or perhaps, if I figure out why, it'll destroy me being that way.

Sometimes, I realize.... certain things were not right in my life before. And now, I wonder if I'll ever make it to be a psychologist. But, like last night, when I was talking to Eric... I told him sometimes I wondered if I'd rather make some invention (not a cure to a disease) that'd help everyone out on a global scale or if I'd rather just try to make a handful of people happier about being in this world. I choose people, still. People are so...just... amazing. They are so absolutely disgusting, so selfish, so, just... evil, some of them. But others, they're so great and have no clue. They are what makes this world better. Yet, it seems, those people are always the ones who suffer.

And then, you have the people, who I like to call "bubble" people. It's like they never think about anything outside of their own lil happiness factor. Sometimes, I wish I could be like that.

But, I think, this is all I'm gonna write for now. Perhaps more later.


Hahah, I just noticed I said cokes up there.