Each Day Already is a Challenge

Don't wanna

This fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue stinks. Really. Although I would love to sleep all the time, the most painful time for my joints and muscles is getting in and out of bed. So getting into bed hurts. And I know that when I get back out of bed that will hurt as well. Even when I'm thoroughly exhausted, knowing that getting in and out of bed will hurt so badly doesn't make sleeping that attractive.

I'm not sure which is worse, but I think it's getting up in the morning. Sometimes I lay awake in bed praying. But, ultimately, I have to get up at some point, even if it's just to answer nature's call. And I would just like to scream and scream because of the pain.

Considering the pain that I do experience, I think I'm still a rather pleasant person to be around. Sometimes I want to be reeeeeeaaaaaaaaaallllllllly grumpy, but I try not to be.