The Undiscovered Country

Um . . .

Ever have lots to write about, but none of the gumption? That be me. My apologies for not visiting the rest of you. Again, no gumption. I managed to write a mere 14.5k for Nanowrimo, but then petered out. Oh well, I have a good start on a story, so that's something. The largest reason for me not continuing is because I didn’t have a good direction to follow. It’s complicated enough, I’ll need to write an outline before I continue on. When that will happen, not a clue.

My brain is full of preparing for the little one's arrival. I'm almost at 34 weeks, and many consider babies full-term at 37 weeks. I did the math, and that means I could have this baby as early as Christmas day. I hope not, but I don't exactly have a choice in the matter.

I've been putting stuff together for me and Thomas so when the time comes, I'll only have to grab a suitcase or two.

I also purchased more baby stuff, to the point I wish I lived in earlier days when we didn't have to spend days researching on the best car seat, crib, etc. Sometimes having too many choices is a bad thing. It’s daunting to say the least.

Last Thursday was our first baby education class. It's interesting so far in that we learned what to expect as far as labor and a few breathing techniques and massages to help us through contractions. The next four classes will go into more detail including pain management options, and what happens if a c-section is necessary.

What I noticed first was that Dave and I were the least nervous in the group. For everyone it's their first pregnancy, so for most, their biggest fear is the actual labor and delivery, the pain involved, etc. One couple is having twins, and their biggest concern is possible c-section.

I don't have any fears per se (at least not yet. Ask me again when I go into labor). I am anxious about not knowing what to expect, but I'm not afraid of it. I figure women have been having babies for thousands of years; my body will know exactly what to do and when. If not, I'm lucky enough to live in a country where medical advances are such, no matter what happens, both Thomas and I will be well taken care of.

Sure, there are always dangers, and the unexpected even a doctor practicing for 30 years isn’t prepared for, but I take a chance with life every time I walk out my door. We can’t go through life fearful of every horrible eventuality, because we cease to live at that point.

Life’s too short to worry about what tomorrow will bring. I’d rather enjoy today - and right now it involves a nap.

Night, night.