My Thoughts: when the mood strikes.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011, 9:01pm

Wednesday, June 15, 2011, 9:01pm

         Tonight I am thinking about success.  I received an e-mail about how to achieve success, and you're always hearing about it, there are books about it, lectures, you name it. 

         Though I have taken college courses, I never achieved a degree.  For a long time, it bothered me.  I felt like less because of not having a degree.  Also, I was proud of what I achieved --- I was a legal assistant for almost fifteen years to a major partner and shareholder at a well-known firm in St. Petersburg.  Then I was a paralegal at an Insurance Defense firm in Mobile.  I thought I had achieved success, somewhat --- despite no degree.  In retrospect, I don't think I was successful at all.  I just thought maybe I was... and was a little proud of myself, maybe.

         I think I have finally reached success and that is in the fact that I am not weary from my work.  I work, don't get paid much, but I am at peace.  I go home at the end of the day and feel good about myself.  The people I work with are moms, sisters, daughters, fathers, brothers and sons.  They don't have fine things like fancy clothes, cars, big homes, but they are happy, hard-working, truly nice people with good hearts. 

         I am no longer worried about tomorrow, the future will take care of itself.  I've learned to do without food, money, TV, telephone, gas in my car.  I've learned to not worry even though I am behind on my rent, I owe the government, and can't even pay the attorney to file bankruptcy for me.  Though I am not sure how the rent will be paid and/or whether or not I will be out on my behind at the end of the month, I am not worried.  God will see me through this, and I will make it through stronger, with more vigor and character than I had before.

         If I die tomorrow, I will be satisfied that my life was not in vain, that I learned my lessons well.  I only hope I can completely fulfill my purpose on earth before my time comes.

         Good night!