Wondering about my Wanderings

Word Games

I am playing word games, kind of like scrabble and boy can something stir up emotions. We both enjoy a game called Word Chums. I was way ahead and then he finds a word worth 160 points. Game over.

How does a dad deal with his son being so much better than him? I guess in some respects I am not a very good sport after all. I remember playing checkers and needing to play until I win. So I hear I sit and wonder where it all ends. In my mind I think I ought to win after all...............At that point I wonder if I am just that dumb. I forget that there are always some people out there that I can compete with and others who I can not compete. This is the way it is in all games. There are levels. I may be better at areas which another player will struggle with. I just recently beat another player to the extent he does not want to play with any more in the same game my son is beating me at.

I have to wonder why God sets things us this way. I feel kind of down. I look at all the place in which I struggle. Can I do anything right? It is the voice of so many persons that I take care of. I enjoy the work and yet I can get lost in the questions that I struggle with. God give me strength.

The best I know to do is keep playing and determine to learn and enjoy the moment. For soon enough for what ever reason I may not be able to play at all. That is the way it is with my Buddy Brian, Alan (now dead) and others I befriend along the way. It is finding the place of hope and solace in whatever form it takes that I can find out what salvation means.