Wondering about my Wanderings

What was the most important thing that happened yesterday?

What was the most important thing that happened yesterday?
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I am learning that I need to move on. I looked at the face the fireworks and I remembered a lot about times I spent with family back east and in KC. I was caught in the past reflections. I felt real sad, because I am remarried and Sharon has little interest in the holiday ornaments. I reflected on the fact my kids have moved on. It hurts to let go. It is like letting go of all those majestic glittering rainbow colors exploding in ecstacy.


I love my kids, yet I need to find my own joy, which is a real novel thought for me. It will be a lot of work. Shortly after my divorce (The divorce) I decided I would not take any pictures. I have taken very few pictures since twelve years ago when my first marriage officially ended. I offer excuses to my children of wanting to experience life rather than take pictures of it. I wrestle with whether there is a happy medium for me. Since the divorce I have three grandkids and have taken no pictures of them. I also have a daughter that just graduated and is headed to Iowa for her doctorate. I feel real sad. I tire of thinking of life in terms of BD (before divorce) and AD (after divorce) Tonight was like a slap in the face. It is as if God is telling me:
Look up and see how good life can be. Take a picture and share it with others. Let them know there are reasons to be in joy. Let them know all people can find God in joy-enjoy!!!

Thanks for asking the question!!!