Down the Rabbit Hole

Fear and Loathing in Suburbia

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Day 1460: November 14, 2016
Prompt: Use the following words to create a story or poem. Words: dance, castle, onion, grinder, screamer, glamor, cougar, reckless, zebra

There is a famous poem that tells us to "dance like no one is watching". This is reasonable advice except those of us working moms who live a carefully regimented life that leaves precious little time to use the bathroom interrupted, let alone dance. For us, our home is our castle where we lord over as many details of our family's routine as is humanely possible. We have to be authoritative and diligent because we have two full time, ultra demanding jobs which can be notoriously thankless at times. My husband accuses me of being bossy and a screamer on a regular basis. He is right on both counts. Some days this double life can put you through the grinder. I live a life that is full of purpose and reward but entirely devoid of glitz and glamor most days. I think I make careful, conservative decisions all the time and my fantasies involve me living out days when I behave unreasonably or act reckless. Sometimes, I sleep through the second and third alarms or spend my lunch getting a secret pedicure. Some days I wear sexy zebra leggings and a push up bra and tell myself I could still be considered a cougar in certain circles and with enough wine. Sometimes I tell myself I'm still a mystery for my husband, like an onion with multi-layered surprises waiting to be unraveled. Some days I even dance....I just do it before everyone else wakes up!


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DAY 980-- November 14th, 2016
Prompt: What fears have actually come true in your life or, if you’d rather, a friend or a family member’s life?

Fear has always been a big motivator for me...fear of failure, fear of loss, fear of illness, fear of being an underachiever, fear of not being successful. I think at certain times in my life, I've realized that while at least of few of those fears have come true, they really haven't been as substantial as I once thought. In many cases, the bad things that have come true have given me the opportunity to change my course, change my life in ways that have brought me into something positive. I think you could life your life in fear and miss living some essential parts of it. Facing our fears is part of living, of growing into something more for ourselves.