thoughts, words, deeds

trying to live without regret

If you could undo ONE thing you did in the last year, what would it be and why?

I don’t know. I won’t say I have no regrets. I do have them. But a lot of the decisions I’ve made in the past year have been good ones. I finished school—graduated with my MFA in creative writing last year. I defended my thesis last March and graduated in August. I passed my ninth anniversary of diagnosis. I turned forty one. Neither of those things could I change even though I wouldn’t mind.

I think the only real thing I would change is I would have been more proactive more quickly about trying to find a new job. I still don’t have one, and that means it’s been a long time to be out of work. I’ve been more active on that front recently, but I’m starting at a disadvantage because I haven’t been trying sooner.

But that’s still a minor thing. I’m mostly content with how I’ve lived this past year. I wouldn’t change much.