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Contemplation

Contemplation is the best way to describe my present state of being. I realize at any moment I experience my greatest victory or defeat and maybe I get to a place where I can be in that moment without concern for the perception of others who exist to affirm or condemn me for what I have done or not done.

I Will one day be giving medicine again if only to myself. I guess going forward I want to know what it means or why it even matters and then there will always be persons who know better. That is the medicinal dilemma I choose to opt out of, because in the end it is the relationship between myself and another that is my reason for being. Unfortunately the cloak or curtain of medicinal bliss clouds the waters making me wonder if I want to drink it.