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Perplexed

Perplexed and so now what? I am needing to back off and not let the schizophrenic bind inside of me be my undoing. I am needing to give to myself space to be the man God created me to be.

I need to heed lessons of the past no one needs to know about my anger as much as I would like them to know. It is like a baby that could be torn to shreds by those who do not know better. Run from the abuser as you perceive another to be and do not think people pleasing will cause anything but death. In a perfect world the rescuer could become a hero, but more often than not they become a victim and pretty. Some person's think too highly of themselves and to put them off is to risk annihilation. So I need to seek solace in being more kind to myself for at no moment will I see someone live me more than I love myself.