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BLOG.......MY THOUGHTS OF 77 YEARS

by ANN Counselor, Lesbian & Happy

Rated: E · Book · Emotional · #1925824

Poetry and Prose about life, family, thoughts & Lesbian concerns of heart

** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Come in for a visit. I write about my life as a daughter, mom, grandmother, friend and life partnership with my lesbian wife. You may smile, laugh or cry, either way you'll have learned about life in America since 1938. ANN

And, my friend, I understand because all my silent years I was so deep into my church and Christian activities and feared 'sin' and felt shame when 'sex' was mentioned. Nobody spoke of the "horrible" sin they would not name (the rape of a child); At the same time, I watched ministers and deacons and Sunday School teachers sneaking around committing adultery, while I desired and lived 'without sin' as I knew sin to be as I was taught. I thought and studied the Bible and realized how today's preachers and teachers condemn only what they don't do or what a church leader has said to condemn; I've seen the woman run out of the church but not the man; I saw enough, and I knew the heart of love within me, from all through my life had its focus; it was never about 'having sex'.

...Heck, I didn't know about homosexuality until my college years; then I understood my heart and there was never a sexual thought associated with anyone before my marriage to the man who 'chased' me three years then almost murdered me 16 years later as my children heard the physical fight. After that I stayed single Mom, never dated, just had many friends and my children. Finally after raising my grandson, and knowing my own heart would never ever seek love from a man, I acknowledged that all my life, all of my relationship experiences and feelings clearly showed I had a heart that was drawn romantically with deep love that I could not ever express.

Then I moved to Portland, came out and you know you can read the rest of the story. I know how God created my heart. If I don't believe God created me as I am, how could I live? It has nothing to do with 'doing' anything at all; it is 'being' as my Creator created me.

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I retired in Idaho then moved to Oregon to show my pride as a member of the latest hated group across America: I am a lesbian and when I came "Out at Sixty", I came with pride and joy that I no longer had to hold the secret or carry the shame thrown at gay men and lesbians. With that same pride, I accept all persons and their right to be who they are and live with joy, peace, and the pursuit of happiness.

I took a writing course at age 69 and began to write short stories, poems, essays, Op-ed comps and I found Writing.com where I am an Advocacy Writer, writing as an advocate for every person to have Civil and God-given rights each day as they pursue happiness for themselves and their families.

Yes, most of my writing has been about gays and lesbians, however, I believe every person in the world shares the same heart and spirit to live peaceably with all peace loving people; while seeking to change the minds of those who live with anger, hatred, prejudice, racism and such.

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ANN Counselor, Lesbian & Happy

Jul 9, 2017 at 3:50am
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https://www.writing.com/main/books/entry_id/878406-1945-THE-VERY-FIRST-BARBIE-DO... TILL-HAVE-HER

asking my daughter to share this with my sweet granddaughter, Autumn Ann

ANN Counselor, Lesbian & Happy

Jun 13, 2017 at 12:40am
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I came here today after being lost for a few months while my head has felt 'airy' as if nothing but air there...That is s frightening place to be..........this 'aging' thing is so hazy and unreal so much of the time. Actually, I now have forgotten a million things that once were easily retrieved: mostly real tim of recent months...so vague or actually gone or hidden in my brain.and this is so very scary as I struggle day at a time. I'll be 79 on August 5 and always hoped my brain would stay clear the 100-plus years this body just might last.........my grandmother and her eldest daughter got to 99 AND in mid years they and I appear like triples in photos so there is a good chnce this body will last another 25 years but will the brain? I so pray that it will be like my aunt who was still intelligently A-OK at 99 when I saw her last. Hope and pray with me for this mind to be clear that long. Ann Patterson 9451 N. Polk Ave, Portland Oregon, 97203.

Special thanks to each of you who have sent me a letter or gift this year.

Ann

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ANN Counselor, Lesbian & Happy

Apr 11, 2016 at 3:40pm
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Thanks for your comments. Princess Megan Rose: Notice that I call her the first Barbie in 1945 because she is built like the 1970's Barbies were; I regret that I never bought my first daughter a 'Barbie doll'. Maurice: I even have an earlier doll of mine ... with a missing arm.. mine when I was age 4...which wears a 'dress' I made for her.... to pass on to one granddaughter!! Lyn: You're right about the value of passing a prized possession forward...my sister's granddaughter felt deeply blessed when she received my sister's doll to pass forward someday... Neva: speaking of 'beautiful memory', everytime we take time to focus on a childhood memory or cherished toy or photo, we are blessed in remembering and the one we share it with is also blessed. All of us 'elders' recognize that, especially when we are the one remembering a moment in earlier days of our lives. All those life experiences and items that bring a memory to mind, are truly cherished.
ANN

Prosperous Snow celebrating

Apr 10, 2016 at 11:12pm
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Beautiful memory.

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Joy

Apr 6, 2016 at 10:39pm
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All those great conflicts, and yes, I do recall the sixties.

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Lyn's a Witchy Woman

Apr 5, 2016 at 11:32pm
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Sharing our prized possessions with the younger generation is a great way for them to learn about our childhoods, I am happy that you have that opportunity. Thank you for sharing with us.

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Princess Megan Rose 22 Years

Apr 5, 2016 at 2:29pm
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I stil have my first Barbie. She made it through a fire. I still collect Barbies. Glad you still have yours as well. Nice entry.

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MD Maurice

Apr 5, 2016 at 10:22am
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Kudos to you for holding on to such a special heirloom for your granddaughter.

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ANN Counselor, Lesbian & Happy

Mar 24, 2016 at 5:43pm
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Dear, dear friends, You've made me smile;

and Cinn

, you made me laugh out loud with that final line saying "I'm prolifuck" in your own way...

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Mina~

Mar 24, 2016 at 5:18am
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what a beautiful poem ann.

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