This poem was so full of pain it made my heart ache. I read line after line of hurt, aching and sadness. If that is a spouse, sorry, I'd boot him/her out. Who wants to live with that agony day after day?

It got happier at the end but I was confused because the sadness was still intermingled in with the hope.

You drew me in, held my attention and made me feel for the pov of write.
Thanks for sharing.
love, LinnAnn