Oklahoma Wont Be OK When Im Done

I don’t understand.
Even slightly
“I love you with everything I have”(except being able to tell you the truth, that isn’t included in everything)
I see you
You love me
I leave
You contradict.
When I’m bored(most the time) I call you
First.
First?
Yes, first.
Before my girlfriend even(and she’s not long-distance)
I cast my cellular minutes to the wind.
If they were Jeppeto, I would gladly push them into the damned whale
Just to have a 15 minute conversation with you.
To be quite honest though,
It barely does anything to my minutes seeing as it takes a second (call ended: 0:01)
To press the end button when your answer machine (no I won’t need to press 1 for more options, no I do not wish to press 5 to page this person)
But I’m fine with it
Really
Would I lie to you my dear sweet constant?
Yes
Back to being a constant
You never lost the position really
I just said you did
You know, like when you’re hungry so you break whatever food you have in half eat one half now then the other half a bit later so you think you’re tricking your brain into thinking that you ate more food then you actually did, but you know it doesn’t work because you’re trying to trick what formulated the plan to begin with?
You know what I’m talking about.
Oh my constant
My constant
My constant
My constantly callous, contortionist of the ventricle, slicing up my being as if it were some rank vermin in your anatomy class.
(my darling pious absentee lover)
Come(cum?) let me feel the contour of you as your arms take careful l(ust)oving care in wrapping my torso like a boa aiming to make my insides out.
I thank you for this warm congenial care by l(ust)ovingly ravishing you upon a sqeaking futon as our friends peep from behind the bar in drunken fiendish delight in our sexual exploit(ation)s.
Later on,
However,
I hear from a second party (who partook in the fiendish delight)
That you didn’t “feel the spark” you thought you would.
You didn’t feel how you feel you should have felt.
(you had me fooled, “I’ve waited so long to do this”, “I wish you didn’t have to leave” and, of course your tongue in my mouth and your hands [s]in my pants)
lets say that Canada represents wanting to be doing whatever you’re doing at a given time.
lets say that Mexico represents loathing to be doing whatever you’re doing at a given time.
lets say that America represents content and being neutral(for the sake of this example at least)
from what I remember (reference to the last set of parenthesis) I would have guessed you were orgasmically dancing upon the Queen Elizabeth Islands.
From what the second party (whom is a trusted and friend of us both) it sounds you were roughly in Oklahoma.

Darling,
I’m burning Oklahoma