AM I?

AM I?
(a work in progress)

I honestly have no idea what to say
I think it may be too much to assume
You were talking to me
About me
Thinking of me

Still

I want to respond
Though I cannot seem to explain the intrinsic necessity to do so

It is a pain I’m familiar with
It is deep within me
A stirring of my soul
A longing to be understood
A desperate attempt to keep my sanity
A tremendous need to know that I’m
Not alone

But this
You
Of all those along the path
Who may have held the key
To unlocking the depths of the soul
You
A perfect stranger
That I do not know
That I do not understand
You

Alone

But if you do as you say
If you are willing to try
If I am who you intended
Am I?

Or am I
A stranger
Gazing longingly into a world
A promise
That I will never know
Have access to

Am I As I was
Stuck forever more
In the shadows gazing
Adoringly, wondrously in

Will I never be invited to the ball?
To share in the beauty
That lay contently there

Am I Destined to be surrounded
Always
By strangers
Who whisper
Pretty nothings in my ear

Am I?