Black Soul

I'm sitting alone here, in this big, black hole
That used to be once my world.
They tore it apart,
And now, all I have left
Is this black, stoned heart.

I want to laugh, have fun, go out with friends,
I want to have hopes and dreams,
But they are all fading away
Day by day.

They all expect me to be something that I'm not.
I'm not perfect; I'm not smart enough,
I can't be what they want,
Even though I tried so hard.

Tried so hard to be what they want
And I forgot what I'm about.
But they don’t understand me,
They won't even try
To just let me live my life.

So thanks to them my soul is black,
I'm never really happy, just pretending to be
'Cause I feel like the clouds above me are always black,
And a hard, cold rain never stops falling down on me.

I'm tired of being yelled at.
I wish that maybe once
They'd ask if there's anything wrong,
'Cause everything is wrong
They just don't give a dang.

I feel like I'm fading away,
Dying slowly, day by day.
I'm sick of the fact that
Every day's the same, and I keep trying to change that,
But there's always something that stops me in my track.

I feel sad and lonely,
And that's the only thing that's changing me.
That's the reason I can't go on,
That's the reason I can't be strong.
I need them by my side
To tell me it's alright.

But they'll never understand me.
They'll never know I'm bleeding inside
'Cause I'm not an open person
I never say what's on my mind.

I once tried
To say what's on my mind.
I once tried
To say that something isn't right.
But they said it's my fault
And that I always complain;
They never saw the pain.
So, ever since then I haven't been the same.

So, now I'm sitting alone in this black hole of mine,
And searching pieces of what used to be my life.
I'm waiting for someone that might change my soul from black
To a color that would make me feel more alive
And help me complete the puzzle of my life.