THE PAIN WITHIN MY SOUL

I hurt within my heart each day
As I watch you be torn apart
It seems your mind has went away
And fury stirs in your heart.

My Love, I don’t know what to do
I wrestle every moment
With ways to try and help you
To show my loves not dormant

I see the fear deep in your eyes
The pain your going through
The evil that you fight within
As the torment embraces you

What can I do, my love, for you
For your battle is in your mind
The evil one embraces you
And will drag you down in time

I think of the pain that I’m going through
The things that’s been said and done
The horrible life that we’ve become
But look what they did to God’s Son.

You’ve said such horrible things to me
And your hands have hurt me so
But I have to say the words you speak
Cut through my very soul.

I sit and listen to you
Day in and out and in
Sometimes I feel insanity
Is what satan’s trying to win

Chad, I love you with all my heart
And it pains me deep inside
To tell the man that I love so dear
That maybe it’s the end of our time.

I can’t go through this any more
The pains to hard to bare
It’s hard to watch the man you love
Slowly fade like air.

I’ve never met such madness
You change just like the wind
I don’t know who you are anymore
Or how our life with end

I’m thankful for the Lord, My God
For calming all my fears
For the strength that He has given me
To endure these last few years

What we’ve become I’ve learned to hate
And I’m sure that you have too…
But the demons that you fight today
Only you can set them loose.

In a way I feel I’m lost without you
In a way I feel I’m found
I miss the Chad that I once knew
Before the “ice” monster came around

I know you don’t believe me baby
But this drug has hooked your soul
It’s taking you further down my love
Your digging your own hole