Whats left of me(part1)

                    What's left of me.

I try to erase in me the memories of you tasting me.
Loving you was a waste to me.
Your lies are a disgrace to me.
You were always hating me.
Constantly debating me.
Being with you was a mistake to me.
You cryed to me when confided to me.
Yet you only lied to me.
All the secrets you'd hide from me.
You died in me.
You said you'd care for me.
You were never there for me.
Your life you promised to share with me.
But your not here this isn't fair to me.
Why did you confuse me?
Mentally abuse me.
Did you think this would amuse me?
All the lies and cheating you still refused to me.
This love starts to defuse in me.
Being with you has bruised me.
Still when I see you I need you.
This connection isn't broken I can still read you.
I question what I really mean to you.
You used to tell me there was something I freed in you.
I am now without you but, I still don't doubt you.
Inside my head I always shout for you.
Am I being to loud for you?
Would you mine if I crowded you?
I have to confess to you.
I am obsessed with you.
I hate myself for excepting you.
The pain I was subjecting myself to.
You were always testing me.
While you were sexing me.
You wrecked me.
Slowly lessened me.
You never brought out the best in me.
Now I've lost the rest of me.