words i can not say to you

You call me and ask
me how I am.
When I hear your voice
my heart breaks again.

You have hurt me so much
that I cant stand it.
I gave you all of me
and you took advantage of it.

You have no idea
what it does to me 
when I hear your voice.
It tears another hole
in my already broken heart.

I have tried to stand by you
but I cant take anymore.
You only think of yourself
not what I feel or think.

You say you love me,
but how can you love me
when you don't even love yourself.
When I talk to you,
you don't even listen.

At night I cry inside
because I need my heart back.
You took my heart
and stomped on it
like it was nothing.

I cant say these words to you
because I hurt way to much.

I need a love that
is pure and deep.
Someone who loves me
for who I am,
not who you want me to be.

My heart is broken,
but I still go on.
I go on because one day
I will find that person
I have always needed.

Hearing your voice on the phone
makes me feel sad and angry
Why, is all I keep asking.
I get no answers.
You never saw me.
You only saw the person
you wanted me to be.
I want the hurt to stop,
the aching to stop.

Words I can not say to you.