One day of my life

One ordinary day for me is waking up in the morning because my alarm is yelling. I will shut it down, go back to sleep and the cycle will repeat until I am already an hour late for my appointment. It would usually take me an hour (minimum) to get dressed yet my belief is I can make it in 30 minutes. My mom's wonderful house is situated in a suburban area, which makes it an hour or two to get me to my workplace, but I insist I can still make it in 45 minutes. People start to hate me for this. Nobody can tolerate waiting for long periods of unsure hours, for I myself hates waiting. I am not up for even a minute of waiting for a program to start in a children's party just so because the clown is not yet ready, or wait for the mass to start because the priest hasn't arrived, or wait for a friend on a set date because I was the one who chose the place and she/he is unsure how to get there. I realized, what I hate doing is something, exactly what I am doing to others. How would I know? I am pre-occupied with my emotions. Yeah, emotions. In a certain situation, I used to put my all self to it, set aside all other emotions I have and focus on what I have in front. What I noticed was, when I am putting myself into something I easily get pissed off, I am so sensitive, I think about it too much. Yes, I am talking about Love, Friendship, Work and all the people who are involve with it. Back home, I will mind all the clutter made by my busy siblings. I will de-clutter, and if found cluttered again we will have a problem. When I am with my bestfriend, I will make him/her feel so comfortable and given that he/she had become, I will surely get annoyed by never-ending favors and laid down reality of who my bestfriend really is. My boyfriend will be clueless why I will start to nag on a regular date out of a shallow unexpected reason. All these are because I get into them so much that all I do and care would be just for them. I get emotional and it gets thru their nerves. But when I do not put myself into them, they will ask why. This is why I started to stay in the middle of everything. Neutral became my best buddy. I have my bestfriend but I let her/him live life alone too. I would just go on a date but don't commit myself anymore, so as to spare of everyday dramas. I still have a career yet I am not sure if I will get promoted. I am thankful all other employees and I get along very well and lastly, I am still with my family. They are not that perfect, as I wish they would be but they are there after; someone broke my heart,  I got bankrupt because an acquaintance did not pay back, I got suspended because I'm an hour late at an important meeting at work and they don't get annoyed when I kept on clicking the 'snooze' on my phone in the morning because I still don't want to get off the sack. Have a wonderful life everyone! ^_^