Moon Light

Here I am again, after all these years, and am still here with my broken heart after a millions times of tries to fix it, I really don’t need to fix it! I will try to not use it anymore, I wish that I can change it, because it's suffocating me, as I learned before I will rest it, and I will use my brain, maybe this time I will success, because really thinking of you make me hate my life and myself, so I will burn your memories and even the memory of your smile then I will Spread the ashes on my tears until it melts, because really it's made me feel sorry about my self.

You still remember how to smile after all what have you done to me! what a great heart without any mercy, maybe I was wrong of consider you as an angel, you are a shadow of a past, and this past will forget soon my dear, that enough I think your memories raised for a long time inside my deep, and I suffer enough , what a strange fate!.

How do you look ? I really don’t remember, cause imaging you like a kid creating some stories about an invisible ghost, now I know that you really don’t deserve all this tries, but I thought that the shadow will appears it owner, but I was wrong all these years, the shadow will never turns to reality I think that I don’t need a shadow or even a memory to go on in my life, the shadow disappears at night, and the light disappears under the sun, I need the moon light, yes that's it the moon light.

Moon light that lights my darkness in a charming situation, and be beside me and never leave until the sun rise, and it's wait until the dark returns then it lights it again and again, without any stopping, what a great feeling when you see that a pure light here for you any time you need it.

Is that moon light unreachable? I still can't find it yet, I afraid that it's invisible too, this time I should not follow it like before, I will make it under my lead, lights my way without my request, and when I feel weak I can look above me and see that it's still here with me and will never fade away, I got a strong faith that I will have it so soon, now I can see my darkness vanishing slowly.

This life teached me that if you wanted something so badly and it's not yours you will never get it, even if you need it so much, and then it's wait until you finish your objection it's gives you something better than the one you needed, but it's all needs time, Patience and faith, what a powerful destiny you can't change it. and it's control you like a blind doll.