Thanks

i have to hide beneath the skin that is my own
i fear turning into something other than the daughter you have known
go ahead and stare with spiteful judgemental eyes
i wish you knew how bad i want out of this disguise
i want to be more than you expect but i struggle to be good enough
i want you to be able to tell the world 'yeah she takes after us'
this girl that you cant look at, permanently labeled as your own,
just wants the place she grew up in to one day feel like home
but i doubt it ever will.
maybe i lied to much but the truth never made it any better
and you telling me i cant only made me want to hold it together
its wrong to say you understand but then throw that all away
my hopes were crushed every time you ignored what i had to say
and you still do it
like pretending its not real will somehow help you through it
but what about me?
ive been mentally alone ever since i waz twelve
you never offered me help.
but of course i cant blame you for all the things i did
i bet if you could go back in time you wouldnt have a kid
i am the definition of hell
i disappoint you, i can tell
but im just being myself.
children are a parents dream
well im the nightmare that you cant escape, the one that makes you scream
i rid you of all your hope where at one time you believed
i want to grow up fast, i know you want to watch me leave
this wasnt a phase, ill make you see.
and i wont ever apologize for anything i put you through cuz it will never help
and what you did waz  worse, you prevented me from being myself.