To You I Love

         When we first met, I never thought many things that are true today. I never thought that our destinies would intertwine, I thought they would go their separate ways. I guess that's what i get for thinking. I wanted this. Though I would never have thought that you would have given one such as me, so low and in filth, the love of your first kiss. You think it was hit and miss, that you weren't any good at it, but I'm telling you that it was like getting reborn again. There was no doubt, from when i first walked over and sat down next to you, to where we held each other tight. There is no doubt in my mind that are match is perfect, just right.
         Why me though? You know I'm not good looking, my words are ill attractive too, my eyes are all but hooking. What is it? Did you feel sorry for me? Did you not want me to be alone? What about my, my, perverted stench do you find to be appealing? You know me, my past, the things I've done for others in the name of love. Oh, yes, you know. How the first died when I broke her heart and she cast herself out in the night. Man with drink, a little too gone, and Mormon teen think alike. Struck. Killed. Gone. Yet her spirit lives on. Or was it the game i played, for three months to many so cute. From cheerleaders to geeks in band who love to play their flute. This hand unclean, deeds to sinful to see, in view of public or hidden behind smoky screens. Or was it how I loved her. How I threw away my life just so that she could stay away from all the hate, and all the pain of her father, the drunk, and her mother, that whore, both selling themselves for things they craved more. Beating her again and again, till the blood ran free from her cuts. Was it the drugs I watched, the white snow that kept on falling. As did my friends, falling to the ground, dead and gone. Lost in Glock rounds and bat poundings. Or was it the fact she fell too. One shot, one sound echoing into eternity. Why me? Why love me?
         But I have your heart, or so I think and so wish to believe. The heart that was broken over a villainous kid. Not to say he was bad, just bad was what he did. I just loose words to describe what has conspired over this year we've known each other, the three fourths we've been together, how I impress you and you mother like me, sisters think I'm a little shabby, but hey, that's all right. So this poem i commit to you, the one that follows these next few lines. I know I have written many before, but this one is for all to see, for all to see what you mean to me.....



Yonder mountain tops crest high above the plains
Clouds are farther up than that, and lay down gentle rain
The snowy peaks glow white as the sun starts to rise
And then my day begins, not by that, but by looking in your eyes
The birds may sing, the sun may shine
But those things are shared, and not just mine
But your lips you give to me
You give me you so I can see
Your heart you surrendered without a fight
Mine I give, though it be black as night
So do my words now caress?
Think not of my hand and where it goes, think of it less
And think not of things of past
But to the future where our love always lasts