Why did I try...

Take it day by day,
Hopeing memories fade away.
I cant seem to let go,
Like an owl clings to its prey.
Want to speak, but cant find words,
My knees are weak,
My visions blurred.
Sounds remind me,
I cant put the past behind me,
Be kind and please rewind me.
Empty inside me,
Dont know where to go,
Did we go too fast?
Should we have taken it slow?
I'll never know because of silence,
Makes me mad, want to resort to violence.
Dream about it every night,
Wake up feeling lost.
When it happened it felt so right,
But was it worth the cost?
Memories are fond,
But I feel like I was conned!
I thought I knew who you really were,
Or at least who you meant to be,
Now I know, true colours show - eventually.
Never forget, but want to.
I hope you dont let my memory haunt you.
Wishes dont mean a thing,
When reality shuts them down.
It started as a fling,
Then I started to drown.
Gasp for breath, wish for death.
Not an option!
You put my feelings up for auction.
Sold in an instant,
Cry like an infant.
How could you do it,
How could you let him?
I cant see through it,
Darkness has set in.
I miss our talks,
I miss the sex,
Cuddles were the best.
I miss your voice,
I miss your eyes,
Its your ignorance that I despise!
I learn't alot about myself,
That I appretiate.
Like an antique on a shelf,
Your value wont depreciate.
When it comes to your feelings,
I hope noone mugs you.
I hate to say it,
But I really loved you....