Dear Mike

I should have told the truth from the start.
Because after I finally did, you tore me apart.
You never let me explain, it wall to protect you.
You don’t see it that way, you never do.
I should have never loved you, it always ends up this way.
I always screw it up, I always say what I shouldn’t say.
You’re closer to a virgin than me.
Virgin. That’s exactly what I want to be.
I’d take it all back, I’de let you know.
I’m not that girl anymore, I’m not that low.
I tried to say I’m sorry, but that’s not enough.
It never is, but you too, lied about stuff. You knw what we did but you still lie.
When I look in your eyes now I cry.
I should have done this, I should have done that.
Sitting here thinking about it just makes me sad.
IT IS MY FAULT. I take full blame.
I only didn’t tell you because iwas ashamed.
I care about you way too much.
I honestly don’t think this is lust.
Don’t you see, you mean the world to me?!?!?!?!
Without you, I feel so un free.
I know I screwed up and I regret it.
Ever since, I hurt you I can’t forget it.
When I said two guys, I wish it was none.
But now, instead you’re gone.
I know I lied and I wish I could take it back.
Honesty is something I don’t usually lack.
I only wish you’d forgive me for everything.
Only if god forbid.