gone lonely

I am really surprised that how small incidents make you realise that suddenly a person is no more the way he used to be before, I was surprised that how an usyal evening that I send happily hanging out with my friends espesially playing cards could lead to an incident where my frind the one who You feel that let whatever happen you know he is there for you insulted me and hurt my heart it was the wound that couldnt be healed and what hurted more than just that that was this wound was given to me by my very own friend I was reallysurprised to see how this usual evening turned out to be the most unusual one because of that small incident I was surprised with the many things it taught me and the nany things it made me dedicate like now suddenly the only thing that we could enjoy together was cards and now Iwont play it with anyone that was one part while the other thing that it taught me was cursing my friend wassnt of any use because I was the one who expected I was the one to commit a greater mistake of expeting him to be the one always there for me..................................................
Anyways lets just say Iam learnig to become distant to be distant to know no one is there for just you.... Iam have gone lonely and am vowing this time to keep control on myself and say yes i have gone lone...............