Just sitting here

I sit here with a million and one different thoughts racing through my mind, an insane feeling that I begin to feel.
A feeling that I soon begin to detest to despise in so many ways ready to feel smart at last and not struggle so much.
To feel that confidents that I truly am seeming to lack one hundred percent a struggle to live in thiss big world.
The big scary world that feels as if it soon is going to swallow me whole and consume me all together.
Just wishing that I was smart at other things besides it just seems im good at writing out my emotions thats it.
I'm not good at math or any thing else that truly would make a impressive difference for the better in life.
If only I felt smart common since wise, yet my confidents isnt high enough yet like I wish it to be.
Life would be easier if I only were smarter and didnt struggle so much I struggle with a lot.
I'm not the brightest light bulb or the sharpest crayon in a box of crayons but I'm me.
I'm special the way I am, I'm different and unique that way, I just need to remember.
That I truly am smart even when I struggle, it just means I have to work harder and to,
just be confident for who I am in the long run, thats all that really matters right?