"running away"

Running away



You said we couldn’t be

An hour later my ticket confirmed

Sweat on my brow had I made a mistake?

To proud to take it back



I told people I was going their response a deafening silence

An unusual action from a predictable man

8000km or 8mm the distance didn’t matter it hadn’t cured me

You were on my mind weighing me down heavy like rock



Would it be different if I stayed?

Those seven words entwined in my mind and soul

Like tentacles feeling for the correct route

Yet always finding nothing



If I came back different it would be worth it

A mantra said daily without fail like the movement of time

Both physical and mental changes of state

Changing myself like water to steam



A brief goodbye and I was gone running away like a rabbit running from foxes

Filled with instant regret

Its only 16 weeks a blip in the grand scheme of things

But you could forget me like a stranger in a crowd



I came here looking for salvation

But I saw your face in everything like I was surrounded by photos

My heart was heavy like a mountain

My spirit high like a Childs balloon



Poetry helped me think and convey my feelings

Every sentence a homage to your being

Every exercise done incorrectly

Like a storm you clouded judgment



I count down the days until I leave

Time so slow almost going backward

I would see you again and see how I feel

I know deep inside nothing will change



For now I sleep with my overbearing mistress

Her name is India