Life of a unwanted child

" I always thought my parents loved me, when your a child , you don't really pay attention to how you're parents treat you ". "As I got older , I saw that my parents treated me different from my sisters ". When I was 9 years old my mother told me that Wayne was not my real father , that my father left me when I was just 3 years old . Hearing that at 9 broke my heart that the man I call dad isn't my dad .

When I was 12 my mom and Wayne got a house In banning ca , my aunt and he two kids along win my grandma moved in . Everything was ok for awhile so I thought , but my parents never told me what was going on . Till the day I came home from school and everyone was outside yelling and screaming and my grandma was crying . My mother told them all to get out of her house before she hurt them I had no idea what was going is all I knew was my mom was making them leave , I kindda though my mom was drunk and overreacting . Later on that night I got woken up to my mom screaming I told rAchel to stay in bed and not to get up she ok sisy. As I'm walking down the hall way I hear smashing and her being tossed around I started crying because maggie was in the room . Is what you all are thinking is what a horrible thing to hear honestly it was something I was used to he always hit my mom , he broke her arm gave her black eyes . He emotionally and physicaly hurt her . I remember goof back to bed and praying to god that he would make him stoP that he would make him go away . The next morning my mom told me are dad lost his job And she didn't know if they would be able to keeP the house .about a couple of months later we had to find somewhere else to go , we found a apartment which we moved into . My parents started drinking more and smoking weed more but my mom was losing weight like it was nothing . I may of been young but I wasn't stupid they were both doing more than weed . But the one thing that never chained wAs it felt like they couldn't see my half the time and the only time they did was when I was being bad and Wayne would spank me slap me I he mouth . The other two never got hit was sPecial I was a ward not a mc'neir . It was august 2007 and we got some new neighbors emily and Mario they seemed ok . My mom got real close to Emily while Wayne was at work that's when my mom started acting werid she nevr slept at night at that time I never thought anything . But when that women Emily moved in is when everything started how my family was gone and my life was forever changed this is my life story about a unwanted child .



Renee my mother had became bestfriends with Emily really fast . Around the begging of September of 2007 my mom and Wayne and me decide to watch a movie they had been drinking all day and seemed pretty drunk . When my mom brought up the webbox which Emily bought and how she hadn't gave her the money yet . Wayne went off and started yelling thy went into the room and fought I told the girls to go back to there room and to close the door . I herd him smacking her my mom coming running out I just stood there watching Wayne had a knife he stabbed my mom in the wrist . She ran to the kitchen there was blood everywhere . Wayne made her go inthe too room trying to stop the bleeding he called the cops . So I ran I tothe kitchen and grabbed the bleach and started cleaning the blood up . When I heard the cops at the room my mom answered she told the cops Wayne was in the room , she told us girls to say she cut herself cutting chicken she was in denial about what was going on like Always . The cops questions us all the girls told them what mom told themto say . But when it came to me I remembe praying to god about taking him

Away and I couldn't lie I told them what I seen and they arrested him . My mom snapped that day she was never the same again it was like she was shocked I told the truth . I felt guilty for telling the truth I felt guilty about everything . My mom started drinking more having strange people In the house I didn't know. Come to find out she was doing dope after I found that out that's when I became her friend not her daughter . He day I meet jase is when I started feeling safe again . It's December 2 2007 it's my 15 birthday and I decide to invite a group of friend over I hadn't seen In 2 years Over And I was drunk I feel off the table in my living roo

And hurt myself than I got sick and spent the rest of the time in bathroom . That's when I started drinking , it was also when I lost my virginity . A week later my mom had people over a guy was in my room looking at my sister that's when I decided to start doing dope to stay awake to watch my sisters . At that moment smoking that glass pipe is when I fucked my life up .