My poetry/song collection

My Sickness

Vivid dreams of death and violence.
Paranoia to no end.
In my head there is no silence.
Sentences that make no sense.

Take my medications nightly.
Everyone's got something to say.
The thoughts I have are sometimes frightening.
I'm not sure if I want to stay

Save me, save me.
All my thoughts becoming hazy.
Trade me, trade me.
My sickness for just one day please.

*Repeat all*




A Touch of Death

The streets all smell like rotting flesh, and the moon is out to greet you.
Through the fog you see a man, his flesh looks cold and blue.
All dead shall rise from their graves, and torture all the living.
The time has come, for you to die, your life you will be giving.

Who will save you?
Who can save you?
No one hears your cries.

The dead are here.
They've come for you.
Tonight's the night you die.

The streets are filled with rotting flesh, and the demons roam and wander.
Death is here, to take you all, the world is going under.
All dead shall rise from their graves, on this night of evil splendour.
Hell has come, upon us all, and you can hear the devils laughter.

God can't save you.
Who will save you?
He won't listen to your cries.

The dead are here.
They've come for you.
Tonight's the night you die.

The apocolypse has come and gone, and the death is overbearing.
Bodies fill the streets with blood, but you just can't stop staring.
Then you wake up, "just a dream", your life's not at an end.
But now you know, what it's like, to feel a touch of death my friend.




Emptyness

Touch me, feel me, I want you to see me.
The way that I am now, the way that I wasn't.
Look inside of me, feel inside of me.
See what kind of torture hides in me.

Love me, hate me, I want you to rape me.
The way that you are now, the way that I wasn't.
All the emotions, I am emotionless.
Can't see anything, surrounded by darkness.




Enemy

You Can't lose what you never had.
And you never had me.
I can see through your eyes, see everything.
I see your reason to be.

I need to learn to stop and breathe.
But something takes ahold of me.
Feels like I'm slipping away.
Must be something wrong inside of me.

I need to be alive, I need to breathe again.
I need to find an enemy.
I can't seem to live without a little sin.
Won't you please help me be free?

I wanna be your enemy.
I need someone to set me free.
I wanna be your enemy.
'cause to you, that's all I can be.

I wanna be your enemy.
I wanna be your enemy.
I wanna be your enemy.
Somebody set me free.




Hypothetical Psychopath (Unfinished)

Follow me into my funhouse
Take a look inside my mind
To you it may look like a freakshow
You never know what you might find

Why is everybody naked
What's he doing with that gun
How does everyone die this time
How come no one's having fun




I AM (Unfinished)


I am death or I am dying
Kill, be killed or suicide
Would you like to see some more
Or should we stop now, you decide




I Fear

I'm here, because you need me.
You're here, because I let you in.
I fear, I won't get better.
You fear, that you cannot win.

I'm here, because you feed me.
You're here, because I'll take it all.
I fear, that I will fail.
I fear, that you will see me fall.


The walls are closing in again and I feel like I can't move.
I'm falling through the cracks my friend this battle I may lose.
Come a little closer now I'll tell you my own truth.
Mine's not the same reality that you're accustomed to.

Everything's against me here and the air is getting thin.
I'm fighting for my sanity, it's a battle I can't win.
They lock me in this tiny room and poke me with a stick. (?)
"Here take this" they always say, "You know we think you're sick." (?)

I fear, all of this.
I fear, my life is shit.
I fear, I'll go insane,
If this fear won't go away.

I'm here, I've been committed.
You're here, when they let you in.
I fear, I won't get better.
You fear, that I may break again.

I'm gone, but you still need me.
You come, but I can't let you in.
I fear, I'll always fail.
I fear, you'll see me fall again.




Ignorance Is Bliss

Can you see me?
Can you hear me?
Understand me?
Answer this.

Why should I live?
Why should you live?
What is living?
Answer this.

Should I kill you?
Should you kill me?
Why the bloodshed?
Answer this.

As for the answers to these questions...
Ignorance is bliss.




Imprisoned in yourself

You kept me trapped inside myself and never let me out.
I never even wondered who I was.
All the thoughts locked in my head just make me want to scream.
Although I never said a word.

Everything I thought about confused me even more.
I just never thought to think.
All of this, all at once, I wanted to explode.
But all I did was sit and laugh, Imprisoned in myself.

You kept me trapped inside myself and never let me out.
I never really tried to run away.
All the things that heppened then just made me want to jump.
But I just held on to myself.

All of this, all at once, is burning in my brain.
Although I never told a soul.
All the people that I knew were driving me insane.
But all I did was sit and laugh, imprisoned in myself.

You kept me trapped inside myself and finally let me out.
Now I just don't know what to do.
I thought I would live and learn.
But all the things I used to know, went away with you.




Memories

I don't want to remember.
The past it haunts me like a bad dream but when I'm awake.
I don't seem to belong here.
Strange things are happening and I don't know how much I can take.

Do you remember me?
Do you know my name?
Do you see me here?
Am I still the same?

The bulb is burning bright.
Melting what's inside.
Goes straight to my head.
Then the crystals form again.

I scream, and no one hears.
Alone, I'm here, but will I ever be someone?
I dream, but no one cares.
I'm blind and I can't see the walls in front of me.

I run, but I can't move.
I'm stuck inside this hell for all eternity.
When push comes to shove.
I'll drop everyone who ever fucked with me.

You will remember me.
You will scream my name.
You have created me.
For which you'll be blamed.

Breath in the smoke again.
Battle your thoughts within. (Banish the thoughts within?)
Stay up for one more night.
Relight the crystal sin.

I scream, but no one hears.
Alone, I'm here, but will I ever be someone?
I dream, but no one cares.
I'm blind and I can't see the walls in front of me.

I run, but I can't move.
I'm stuck inside this hell for all eternity.
When push comes to shove.
I'll drop everyone who ever fucked with me.

I scream, but no one hears.




Paranoia

I watch you while you're sleeping.
I stalk when you're awake.
You can't stop the dreams you have.
The nightmares that I make.

You think I'm your shadow.
'cause when you run and hide.
I am right there with you.
Sitting by your side.

You think that you see me.
Then you look and I am gone.
Then I call back to you.
You and I are one.




Soulless

In my eyes you are nothing.
In my mind time stands still.
In my eyes I see the world.
In my mind it's nothing.

In your eyes I see hatred.
In your thoughts I see disgrace.
In your hand I see your pride.
In your mind I'm nothing.

In my eyes I see the truth.
In my head it's only lies.
In my eyes I see your pain.
In my mind I'm numbed.

In your eyes I see sadness.
In your face I see distress.
In your hand is still your pride.
In your heart you're soulless.




The Perfect place

I found the perfect place to be.
The sky is dark, the water green.

In my dreams I found this place.
Filled with luxury and grace.
Birds and bees fly through the air.
Gentle winds blow through my hair.

I wish I could stay there.
Always.
I wish I could stay there.

Wonderous creatures in the forest.
People playing in the town.
The only way to get there.
Is by dreaming now.

I found the perfect place for me.
The air is cool, with a slight breeze.
In my dreams I am this place.
Filled with all this empty space.

I wish I could stay there.
Always.
I wish I could stay there.




Untitled 1 (Unfinished)

I can see your innocence hanging by a string.
But you're about to lose it all just so you can fit in.

Everyone is doing it, come on join the fun.
You might not wanna try it, but you'll be the only one.

Sex, drugs and alchohol.
These are the things that make (a perfect world?)




The never ending dream

My life's a never ending dream.
Is it as real as it seems?
Please come back another day.
Don't come back until I say.

What did you say I didn't hear.
The voices in my head aren't clear.
I can't tell you how I feel.
Because I don't know what is real.

Always thinking of my realease.
But I don't really want to leave.
I don't want to die alone.
I hope that there's someone to love. (3x)

Can you see through me, can you tell?
I don't have a soul to sell.
No one really knows the pain.
Of waking up as me again.

My life's not really as it seems.
Sometimes it makes me want to scream.
I can't live this way no more.
I'm getting old, I'm getting bored.

Always thinking of my release.
But I don't really want to leave.
I don't want to die alone.
I hope that there's someone to love. (3x)




Untitled

Why did you leave me here searching for my sanity?
Sometimes I see you still, standing here in front of me.
I can't imagine how the rest of my life would be.
Without somebody, standing here, next to me.

I don't wanna be me anymore.
I don't wanna see myself, sitting here, staring at the door.
I hate all this shit inside my head.
I hate trying to go to sleep, just to end up lonely in my bed.
I don't wanna be me anymore.
I don't wanna see myself, sitting here, rocking back and forth.

Why did you leave me here, living in this fantasy?
Now I can't get myself back to where I used to be.
What would happen if I found reality?
I don't think that I could find another way to be.

I don't wanna be me anymore.
I don't wanna see myself, sitting here, staring at the door.
I hate all this shit inside my head.
I hate trying to go to sleep, just to end up lonely in my bed.
I don't wanna be me anymore.
I don't wanna see myself, sitting here, rocking back and forth.




You have to want to live

Come and taste the suicide that hides inside my head.
I have always wished that I was dead.
As I sit here, alone in my room,
I can foresee my pending doom.

I watch the blood flow from my wrist,
It flows in crimson drops.
Take a hundred different pills,
And wish the world would stop.

Now the world begins to spin
And I fall onto the floor.
The pain without comes from within,
Soon my life shall be no more.

Heart will stop.
Bleed drop by drop.
Breath will cease.
From my disease.

You are the suicide that hides inside my head.
I have always wished that you were dead.
As I lie here, dead on the floor,
My death shall haunt you, forevermore.




The pain that I feel

I'd kill to see you
I'd die to love you
I cannot live without you here

I dream about you
I can't forget you
I am nothing without you here

I tried to love you, you pushed me away
Can't go on livin', my life this way

Rape the mind kill the flesh
All I thought about was death
Fuck you and your selfish ways
All I thought about for days
Was how to kill you, how to get you from my brain

You are the pain that I feel
Why can't you let me be free
You are the pain that I feel
Why can't you let me be free
You are the pain that I feel
Why can't you let me be free
You are the pain that I feel
I'll kill you then I'll be free

You love the way that I hate myself
Self destruction is an easy way out
I thought you loved me, but you got me fooled
My brain is melting trying to keep control

You are the pain that I feel
Why can't you let me be free
You are the pain that I feel
Why can't you let me be free
You are the pain that I feel
Why can't you let me be free
You are the pain that I feel
I'll kill you then I'll be free

You love the way that I hate myself
Self destruction is an easy way out
I thought you loved me, but you got me fooled
My brain is melting trying to keep control

I'd kill to see you
(Why can't you let me be free)
I'd die to love you
(Why can't you let me be free)
I cannot live without you here

I dream about you
(Why can't you let me be free)
I can't forget you
(Why can't you let me be free)

(I am nothing without you here)




Untitled (Unfinished)

Angels falling, demons crawling
People running try to hide.
Armagedon, we are heading
Towards the end of our lives

Who will save us, who can save us?

We are helplessly being hurled.
Into the end of the world




Untitled (Unfinished)

Can you feel the hate that grows inside your lonely soul
Confusion sets into your mind and pain is all you know
You don't even use your heart you keep it on a shelf
All this hate you keep inside you only hate yourself




Untitled (Unfinished)

I see the light, can't turn back
Should I go, or make a pact?
Die right now, or sell my soul?
I'm confused, where should I go
Go to heaven go to hell
What do i want, I can't tell




I AM (Unfinished)

I am death and famine
Hell forever more
I am hell and heaven
With all the blood and gore




The Witch

The whole town gathers for the show
Burn the witch she must go
She brought us plague and misery
Must be her, can't be me

Pouring gas they start to chant
"Burn the witch so she can't
Kill our people with her spells
Kill her now she'll burn in hell"

Start the fire as they say
"Damn you witch" and look away
She yells and screams, can't stand the pain
Jesus saves, it starts to rain.




Untitled 8

I can't believe in anything but you
I don't think I could ever be anything
I can't even see anything that's true
I don't think I ever said anything

It doesn't really matter what you write
It doesn't really matter what you say
People will sing along as long as the rythms tight
I can't think of anything to write now anyway




A Fools God



Because you know I can't hide this.
Tell me how to abide by your rules, That's fuckin' priceless.


You know you're dyin' for a fools god.
You're fuckin' prayin' for a lost cause.




B.Y.O.N.

Bring your
own noose.
It's a party just for you.
Tough life
You lose.
Now it's time to pay your dues.




Like I'm not inside



You're so beautiful, like I'm not inside
Please don't trust me, you should run and hide.




Untitled 4

I don't ever wanna be like you.
I just wanna be myself and hate it.
Do you ever tell the truth?
Or do you always fabricate it?

I can't believe,
Everything you've said to me was a lie.
I can't believe,
All the things I've done for you were just a waste of my time.