I know He has other girls

I know He has other girls but we are not allowed to talk to each other. when I sit and wait i never know if He is with them. This is another way i serve Him in the dark. it another way that i submit . its another way He has me because i know that if it wasn't this dark its not what I need sometimes I dont like that part of me needs it this dark but i know He is right and I know He has me that He holds the rope in His fist that connected to my dark parts.

He NEVER gives up any control. He is always in control . when He speaks i sometimes envision He is playing cards or poker or chess with His words . Calculating each move but always in control. It all makes me very wet . we have had many discussions about the difference in Mastering and sexual bdsm but all of it makes me wet.