by Hazy Storms
This is my blog about whats happening with me!
This is my Blog, where my thoughts go. have a great day!
| Well, you guessed it from the title; it was my birthday on July 22nd! I know I should be celebrating with family and friends but I wanted to say a few words about a few people that made my year more bearable!
The first person I want to appreciate is a girl that been with me every step of the way. Her name is Sierra and she’s my best friend in the whole world. She is who I aspire to be because she’s always been by my side ever since elementary school. We met in third grade and got along ever since! I miss your adorableness!! I love you from the bottom of my heart.
The second person I want to appreciate is another one of my best friends. Her name is Martae. We met at Chuck E Cheese from all the places that we could have met at. We worked together for a short time and I loved the energy that surrounds her. She is an amazing woman and we definitely need to hang out soon! Love ya girly!!
The third person I want to appreciate is a guy that I met last year. We never met in person but, his name is Brian. I was totally shredding tears last year about my ex and he has been there every day since! We do talk every day and it’s been amazing to have a friend like you around. You know exactly what to say to me that makes me calm down or even to keep me happy. I don’t think I would be here still if it wasn’t for you! I love ya man (as friends!) But man, you are an amazing guy that I really aspire to be. Thank you for sticking around me online all this last year. I really appreciate it.
The fourth person I want to appreciate is a girl that I met at a special place. She knows my lowest points and she even driving here from where she lives and spending a night this weekend for my birthday and also to get away for a day! I love and adore you so much, Jenna! You are a Queen and you deserve the world. Thank you very much for being here for me.
The fifth person I want to appreciate is a guy that I never met in person but he is still an absolutely amazing guy that I love so much! His name is Sam and he made it possible for me to meet a whole group of people on discord that are just so beautiful and amazing. I did something amazing for him since he made me have all these friends. His favorite game is Rocket League and his favorite thing to collect is socks, so I got him Rocket League socks! Those are his new favorite socks. I appreciate it man that you have been there when I needed someone. I love ya man! (friends! hahaha)
I just appreciate everyone that has been there for me. If I didn’t say your name don’t fret, I still love you all! I care for each and every one of you. I hope everyone has a beautiful day and does something nice for someone today as I did for you guys! It could just be saying thank you for being my friend or so forth. I challenge each and every one of you to do that.
Love you all,
I'm Back! I want to tell you a story.
One morning shortly after I woke up I broke my glasses. I was dreading and feeling horrible because they were brand new glasses. I also was feeling angry at myself for breaking them but I called my parents and they said they can drive me to get get them fixed. My dad drove me there and we ended up having a blast together and we got a coffee together. When life gives problems, theres always a solution out there and people to help you get through anything.
I recently accused someone of something bad that never happened. It resulted in me talking to someone that I didn’t know that knew the situation and the person that I accused. The thing is he did a drastic thing to me while we were in high school on school grounds. I was hiding behind a screen for so long and I didn’t want to tell the truth to anyone that I lied. Now people don’t believe that it happened and I understand why. there’s no evidence of it or either the cops have it and they never gave it to me. I was trying my best to get over it and I finally think I did. I sent him a message last night apologizing and I am very proud and happy I did so. What I am saying is, if I can get over something very horrible that happened to me so can you. You just say if it’s out of your control then let it go and let the people be. OR if it is in your control, Have faith in it.
I know people go through things every day but still, you should be happy with yourself and love your whole being. If you don’t love yourself then who will? Be patient and laugh at jokes. You deserve a lot more than you think. I want the world for each and every one of you!
Love you all,
It's me again!
So, have you ever had a person be friends with you and be so nice and later on be mean and cruel? I am talking about kindness at first but when you really get to know them they become so mean and cruel that they want you to end your life. Have you ever had that? Well, I have. His name was Jacob. He is one of my ex-boyfriends and lovers, but it hit us both hard when quarantine hit us. We were talking every day and gaming with each other. Then in July of last year, we broke up. He never got me a birthday or even a Christmas present. I understood why, but it still made me sad that he didn’t have the decency to get me anything. I became to verbally abuse him because I was mad he wasn’t keeping his promise to me and I was like that for months. I was just got so sad and depressed. I couldn’t even get out of bed sometimes because of him.
Three weeks ago, I blocked him on everything, or so I thought. I was having a blast not talking to him and living the dream but, last night he did me wrong in so many ways it’s crazy. I was on this game called “VRChat.” I bet a lot of you heard of it. I was talking to some friends of mine in a public world but then I see Jacob’s Gamertag. I was shocked, I couldn’t talk. I kind of didn’t want to. I wanted to see if he was talking trash about me behind my back, which obviously he was. When I froze up I logged out of VRChat for a few minutes and then came back. I wanted to talk to him one last time to close the book, but he didn’t want to talk to me. He instead brought up my personal information and told everyone about my past and he brought up my little sister Sydney, saying “I bet you she won’t be alive very much longer. You never are there for her and you never will be.” at that point, I got so pissed that I yelled and told him off.
Now I know I will NEVER speak to him anymore. I am telling you all this because people who are jerks should never be your friends. Drop those people who are being terrible people to you and don’t associate yourself with them anymore. You deserve better. You deserve love, respect, loyalty, caring, and most importantly understanding. If a person does not give you good vibes then please try to block them and be your amazing self that I know you all can be. Love yourself and be unique!
Love you all,
I know I haven't been myself in a few months. I am currently trying to work on myself. I have been lying, being so emotional, angry, getting into fights a lot. I haven't really thought about myself for a while because I've been so focused on others it's not good. For now on, I have a strict schedule that I am going to use. it entails:
9:00 -- 10:00: Wake up
10:00 -- 11:00: Go on a walk
11:00 -- 12:00 Eat lunch
12:00 -- 4:00: Personal time
4:00 -- 5:00: Go on another walk
5:00 -- 9:00: Personal time and eat dinner
9:00 -- 10:00: Write in my diary
10:00 -- 9:45 am: sleep
I am going to stick with this! I will update you guys if this works! I hope you all have a great independence day tomorrow!! Go out and celebrate! you all deserve it!!
Love you all,
If you think I hate you... I don’t hate you, I don’t dislike you, I’m not sad, I’m not angry... can’t even put a feeling towards you. I don’t care what you say or what you do. It won’t effect me because I simply don’t care and there’s nothing more to it. I’ve es mouths that talked bad about me, I’ve wiped tears from faces that caused mine. I’ve picked people up that knocked me down. I’ve been there for people that haven’t been there for me, but I will never loose myself in the hatred of others. I’ll always have a big heart and I’ll always be here being me. The older I get the more I just want to enjoy my life in peace. I’m sorry for those I have unintentionally hurt while I was hurting. When your angry, try not to say anything. Remain silent. Its very difficult and requires discipline. This will stop you from uttering mean words out of anger. Your anger will pass, but your words can scar someone for life. So use kind words or be silent. Learn about someones past not to punish them, but to understand how they need to be loved. I am slowly learning to not only invest my time and feelings to those who invest in me . I always see the good in people and that’s probably my biggest problem. As you get older you start to pay more attention to peoples mindset rather than their looks. Sometimes you just have to accept the fact that you were put in peoples life just to better them for the next person and thats alright. You have to know the difference between blessings and lessons. I’ll never stop believing that in the end everyone gets what they deserve. Understand that its okay to outgrow people who had that chance to grow with you. At this age you have to know everyone has a lot more growing to do, so you either grow together or outgrow each other. Lying to me or about me is the quickest way out of my life. Don’t get revenge on people who hurt you. Two wrongs don’t equal a right. Life becomes more meaningful when you realize you’ll never get the same moment twice. When you get through those tough times on your own. You really don’t care who stays in your life anymore. If I ever decided to give up on you understand how much that took out of me. I’m the type to give endless chances, and always had your back even when you were wrong and truly accept you for who you are. When you realize your worth, people will be shocked every time! If I’m ever acting “different” I caught on. Nobody hears you until you get out of character. Some of you look so dumb trying to get a reaction out of a person who is bothered by you. The biggest mistake that you can make is pushing someone away that will do anything for you. Lack of communication can mess up a lot of things in life, speak up. Be the best person you can be. Spread love instead of being afraid of it. Love yourself for who you are instead of depressed about it. Who you will shine brighter than a fake person. We can see fake from miles away. Don't be a coward just because your life's turning into crap. Just be there for one and other and we can get through all this together. Love yourselves and love each other and don't forget to spread kindness.
Haley Kirchner 💖
there's a lesson to be taught everyday. There's something to learn everywhere you go. If your hanging out with your friends and one of your friends said "this sure is a convivial cocktail party, I love it!" You probably would ask what "convivial" means. It means: enjoyable atmospheric or jovial company. OR if you happen to do joke around and be mean a little mean and you didn't know the person very well you were messing with then you would get them on your bad side. That's never a good idea. What if that person has a disability that you never knew about. Try to comfort them and make them feel better. Kindness lasts a long way with anyone. What I'm trying to say is kindness and positivites and just knowing yourself and others well is always a plus. If you don't know someone very well get to know them, then maybe something will spark up there. Who knows?! Take the leap. Keep your hope close to your heart so it'll never leave you. Pass on loving vibes everywhere you go. Just keep in mind that you are human and your bound to make mistakes. When that happens be there for one and other. Love yourself and other and keep yourself safe doing what you love by yourself. Social distancing is real right now but it will get over soon!
Take care of yourselves,
Haley Kirchner 💖
I met this amazing guy this last month. We've started talking more and more. We even saw each other in person a couple of times. I am beginning to love him. The thing is his place is down deep in Portland. Luckily, we can take two max trains to see each other but the thing is in Portland there is a lot of walking. Also, if you guys didn't know that I am in a knee scooter right now because of a broken bone in my ankle. One day in Portland, I was scooting downtown by the Moda center and I was trying to cross the street with my knee scooter but then, I fell off my scooter because someone made me trip and fall off my knee scooter. A lot of people just walked passed me. I mean a lot but there was one nice guy that helped me get up and get back on my knee scooter. If you're reading this, I thank you. (But I don’t think he will ever read this.)
Anyways, the point I’m trying to get at is: trying to scoot with the scooter is a lot of work all the time because it puts a lot of weight on your knee and your arms become stiff after a while if you haven't worked out for a while. So, imagine that you're in a major city and trying to scoot with your scooter with an ankle that is broken in a walking boot and plus you're not supposed to put any weight on your foot for a while. Would you like it?? Would you try to do your normal activities? Or would you have a break from normal? What would you do? If you said you would continue your normal activities, then you should!!!! But give yourself some breaks here and there so you don't push yourself too far. If you can do what I do: Go downtown with your boot or go to the grocery store or even do your normal daily activities, then you should be proud of yourself. That is an accomplishment! Treat yourself for a week's worth!
Love you all,
|“Falling down is an accident, staying down is a choice.”
On December 15 I was working at Costco for Fitbit. It was my second day at the job. I had two locations to cover in one day. I know it must seem like a lot but it was going to get me a lot of money in the end that I need to pay off my student loans. That day though was kind of different. I was on a 15 minute break and I decided to get coffee at Starbucks because I had to get up early in the morning to head to the first Costco. I got my coffee and then tried to head back to Costco to finish up my first job of the day but when I was trying to go on the sidewalk to cross the street, I didn't see mud where I was stepping and I then fell on my ass and knew from them on I couldn't walk or stand up. My father had to pick me up and I went straight home. Later that night I had to go to the ER to see what was really wrong with my foot. It hurt so badly. My father went to the ER with me and we saw and talked to the doctor there and she said "well, you surely broke a bone in your ankle." I was shocked to be honest because my dad told me that 9 out of 10 cases I wouldn't of broke a bone. Well this one was one out of ten cases. I then went home after one nurse put a splint on my foot. After a few days past, a family friend of mine lended me a wheelchair. On Christmas Eve my parents got me a knee scooter and I'm doing really well in that to be honest.
What I'm trying to get across is a life with a boot is not fun. It's a big hassle but everyone needs to understand that when in a boot make the best out of your situation. If you just make little goals like for an example go on a walk for a little bit and then afterwards treat yourself. I know it might not seem fun what you might have to do but make the best out of your life and don't get depressed or angry at your mistakes or experiences. The more mistakes you have made, the more experience you have to learn from and be a better person than you were yesterday. Life is amazing and I want everyone to believe in themselves and to have everything they ever dreamed of.
Recently I've been sad depressed and lonely and heartbroken by my ex boyfriend and I don't know if he's the right person to be with I still love him don't get me wrong but I want to move on from him somehow and I just want someone there for me when times are rough and that someone can have advise for me and be a better friend and actually listen to me when something is really important to me and not blow it off.i just want someone who cares more for me.
It's me again!!
What is really stopping you from making your dreams come true? You have to know that nothing is stopping you! Just go make it happen! I know it might take time and energy you might not have but it will be worth it in the end! If your dream is to have a successful job or career then, just go to college or something and get your degree and apply to the job and make it happen!! It is only hurting you if you are not doing it!!!
Love you all,