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A modest journal. |
| My life's ups and downs... |
| Tuesday, October 4, 2011, 5:51pm My oldest grandson turned 10-years old yesterday... Unbelievable. So, fast. I know we always say that, but it is so true. Time is flying at a fast pace. I started moving on 9-30-11 and finished on 10-1-11 --- from Bay Breeze back with my parents. Made the decision to stay with them until I save enough to return to Florida. Otherwise, all is well --- still working a menial data entry job, not hired but considering helping to pick strawberries, sweet potatoes at local farms. Will be checking that out. If I could just work weekends, it would be a great help to my mission. Didn't meet my three person review quota this month of Rising Stars, but will be on the bandwagon for October. |
| Saturday, September 24, 2011, 10:56am I have been awake for two hours, made the bed and a cup of tea... other than that, been on the computer all morning----checking e-mails and facebook updates and comments. Found a beautiful picture of parakeets (or parrots?) from Discovery Cove in Orlando, Florida. Big changes are happening in my life. My lease expires on September 30. Was going to rent a smaller apartment here in the same complex, but then had two bills/cancellations at month-end I was worrying about... sick to my stomach. Living in Daphne, Alabama has been hell for me----the worst two years of my life thus far, and I am 53. I remembered back to a time when my sister moved to Florida and went through hell... My thought at the time, she really is not supposed to be here. That thought was re-sparked in my mind this week ---- I am really not supposed to be here. I remember the scripture where the Lord said, Why do you kick against the goads? That's me----kicking against the goads for a year and a half. I am moving back in with my parents, and saving money for the next six months. My plan is to move back to Florida in the Spring. Thank God! I have a plan... a good plan, finally! Living with my parents is not the best scenario, but it will help bring about this very needed change in my life. Most importantly, my daughter and her family are there. But also, jobs are more plentiful in the Tampa Bay area; many people know me there --- both professionally and personally. God, I am thankful for open doors! The right open door for me. Except for the wealthy, life choices are not easily made in this great land of the U.S.A., but fraught with many struggles --- which can be overwhelming... even unto death. O my God, I am heartily sorry for having offended Thee, and I detest all my sins, because of thy just punishments, but most of all because they offend Thee, my God, Who art all-good and deserving of all my love. I firmly resolve, with the help of Thy grace, to sin no more and to avoid the near occasion of sin. Amen./1/ -------------------- /1/ Catholic Act (prayer) of Contrition |
| Sunday, September 18, 2011, 1:38pm At month-end I will be moving to a smaller, less expensive apartment within the same apartment community. I'd rather stay where I am, but finances are presently a concern and I am hopeful this will lighten my load. Had a phenomenal church service this morning, as usual. We are having a tent meeting, beginning October 2. So looking forward to it. The Lord dropped it into my spirit before it was announced, which makes me truly happy. Yesterday was busy for me with errands, laundry and house-cleaning... but the results are so rewarding! Everything is refreshed here in Kimville. Have a remarkable Sunday! God bless! |
| Saturday, August 27, 2011, 10:12am My pastor had a word for me over two weeks ago: Don't settle for second best. That word reverberates in my spirit. In the past, I settled for second best in so many ways. Mistakenly thinking that was His will for me and, therefore, I should be content. Thank God, He never gives up on us. I trust Him to lead me and guide me and make me fruitful. I remember Don't settle for second best as I have renewed vigor in my job search. God is with me. He will never leave me or forsake me. And if God is for me, who can be against me? Nothing can separate me from His love. I relinquish my independent and head strong ways, and I choose to wait on the Lord. I will not settle for second best. ----------------- Psalm 46 |
| Sunday, August 21, 2011, 1:49pm Had a phenomenal service this morning. Message: God is not disappointed in me! ...brought forth tears of joy unspeakable and full of glory. The check is in the mail. Famous last words... Apparently the check to help with my rent was put into the mail on 8-16-2011. So, it should be coming forth and I should get some news on Monday. I have decided to fast and pray as I search for another job ---- while I still have a job! Won't make the mistake of quitting one before I have another in place ever again, Lord willing. If I do, you're free to laugh at me. Okay? Things are on the upswing. |
| Wednesday, August 10, 2011, 9:23pm Have an appointment with Community Action tomorrow about getting help with my rent. I need to move but don't have two cents to rub together... If I can get help, maybe I can eventually afford to move... or heck, maybe I'll get a decent paying job! Don't get me wrong, I'm fine... but can't pay my bills and can't afford to file bankruptcy. Now that's pretty bad in my book. Though I fall, I shall arise and declare the works of the Lord. /1/ ---------------------------- /1/ Proverbs 24:16 For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief. |
| Sunday, August 7, 2011, 11:33am Missed church again this morning... Started missing because I didn't have enough gas to get over there and back and also be able to drive back and forth to work for the week. Got up late this morning and really just wasn't excited about driving all the way over there... and a little embarassed for missing several services. I'm strange, I know. =) Have a blessed day! |
| Friday, August 5, 2011, 11:33pm It happened again! I was making an entry and voila----the screen was bumped back and I lost the entire entry. Was about to save it and go to bed. Shucks! I was saying... All is well with me. I will have ninety days in at the place I am working on August 23 and expect to be offered a full-time position. This is great because they offer overtime every week; as temporary personnel, we cannot take advantage of the overtime. When hired, I will be able to work over consistently --- fattening the paycheck at week end enough to make life a wee bit easier. On a sad note, my Grandma Ruby died this week --- Wednesday, August 3. She passed in her sleep. She was 92. She will be missed. It's late and I am going to bed. Good night! |
| Sunday, July 31, 2011, 8:38am I'm relishing this quiet morning. My rent is finally up-to-date! So glad that is behind me. Calm and tranquility are welcome here. |
| Saturday, July 16, 2011, 9:25am It stormed very loudly here throughout the night --- the electricity went on an off a couple of times. Woke me up --- not an easy task once I'm asleep. Also had a dream last night --- my daughter was in it, along with my ex-husband, her dad. It was all so vivid. I am getting very close to catching up on my overdue rent. Yes! I'm still checking and rechecking how I can get caught up and stay on top of my other bills. I'm better off when I just do what I can and don't try to work it out in my mind! Enjoy the weekend! |
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