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One man's journey to find the way home
          I am an American Baptist ordained minister. I began my life journey in Massachusetts, where I was called to help people understand what it meant to know a loving God. The call came during a time when I was wrestling with how to help my brother Kurt, who was diagnosed with Schizophrenia during my high school years. I was a new Christian by my senior year following trying to understand what it meant for me to care about a person like my brother who others tended to stay away from.
          After twenty three years in Massachusetts, God sent me to the land of Kansas City where I spent about 35 years of my life. I was a pastor, a resident chaplain, a supervisor in training and most recently a caregiver and security. Everything I have done vocationally has been with God in mind. That does not mean that I am totally comfortable with all the movings of the Spirit.
          I am now in Erie where I do not know very many people. I came here because of my wife. She is from Erie and coming here was the right thing to do. It just plain made sense. My kids had grown up. I did not like Kansas city in terms of climate and was looking forward to a change. I had become very frustrated vocationally and longed to come to Erie to get a second opinion, because I honestly believed that was what God had wanted for me. I left behind kids and grandkids who I loved!!!! I had two jobs that I enjoyed. They were both very appreciative of my skills and I was making more money with the two jobs than I ever had. I heard more than once. ARE YOU CRAZY?
          Well I can only say that I am in love with God's leading. I am starting all over again. It has not been easy. Maybe some of you can offer me some words of support. I am lonely despite the fact my wife is with me. She battles depression and has two siblings that are having similar battles. When it is all said I am in a depressed community with a depressed wife and her family. So I begin the conversation....
January 30, 2022 at 5:15am
January 30, 2022 at 5:15am
Oh well, in the wee hour of the morning, I need sleep or at least rest. Be with me God. Your will be done
January 26, 2022 at 3:55pm
January 26, 2022 at 3:55pm
My wife is driving me crazy and is now threatening to leave. I am officially a sub and can not find a way to get along with my wife. God help me
January 18, 2022 at 4:46am
January 18, 2022 at 4:46am
Betrayal on the Eve of an anniversary. There are days I question why and whether it makes a difference. God give me wisdom. I feel so foolish I wonder if it is possible.
January 13, 2022 at 5:29am
January 13, 2022 at 5:29am
Be with me God. Therein lies my hope. Let me go forward knowing you are with me. Help me find my soul as I long to beat man after your heart
January 12, 2022 at 10:43pm
January 12, 2022 at 10:43pm
Sleepy means saturation with doubt. I started the day intimidated by my wife's demands. I go to dollar general and drop my milk on the way home. I berate myself. Be with me God
January 10, 2022 at 4:46am
January 10, 2022 at 4:46am
An adventure is on the horizon. The question is am I up to the adventure. I feel tired and frustrated having been taken advantage of and unable to see the light. God help me to have my ore wisdom in the future or I will truly fear for my future.
January 9, 2022 at 1:56am
January 9, 2022 at 1:56am
Exhausted, God give me strength
January 8, 2022 at 11:42am
January 8, 2022 at 11:42am
Huge adjustments. Maybe I should of quit, retired. God give me strength.
January 3, 2022 at 6:22pm
January 3, 2022 at 6:22pm
In the mood for romance. I have enjoyed the attention of a woman that makes me glad I am a man. It is heaven to awaken to new possibilities knowing the beloved is there. In Gods time we look forward to eternal embrace the kiss that opens the door to passion. Being held in the arms of the beloved is to know God
January 2, 2022 at 4:22am
January 2, 2022 at 4:22am
Happy new year. I hope to get into my writing skills as I enter the next year. I am taking risks that make me wonder who I really am and where I am headed. By accident my wife was called by my phone.

I pray that I am up for whatever is next. I continue to struggle with what caregiving means for me as I enter retirement. Be with me God. Help me learn lessons that can lead me to build others in your image

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