Brittany

Poem: “Brittany” BY Neil Micah Lannom (11-30-18)

Her looks
She was strong
But her teeth

To find beauty
In her
However

She wasn't a model
But I loved her
I found her

Her qualities
Good qualities
To find them

In a woman
I discovered...
Beauty, where beauty probably couldn't be found?

Where beauty wasn’t found
I found it
In her

Why?
She became something
To me

Her mind
It was troubled
I could see her pain

However
I saw something in her
Something good, greater

She washed
She washed my clothes
It gave her purpose

I brought her back
Gave her something
Light, direction, a gift!

She had a brain injury?
I saw the scare
What happened to her?

I still don't know
I dont know much about her
She didn’t talk much, about things...

Did she love me?
Come to love me?
Then grew cold?

Or was it me?
Did I push her away?
My own fault?

What I loved about her most...
I discovered her strength!
It inspired me!

She tried to find peace...
Around them, around me...
But couldn't

They hurt her, I hurt her
It killed me!
How could they, how could I?

They pushed her away from me
I thought I'd pushed her away?
Was I the one who broke the relationship?

I wrote this in the ward
Back now, at the group home
This evening...

They are blocking us meetIng, now
Rules, absurd...
Dark forces, destroying our fragile relationship

I was drinking alcohol before
Thought I'd blew it, that night...
Things are different now

She needs help
She needs me
She needs my love, comfort, kindness, gentleness...

Good girl
I think we made love
My memory...

Time to start anew...
I'm going to love her, again!
Don't let them take her from me!