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Journal entries of my life as a writer. |
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This is a journal of my writing life since I joined the Writing.com community of writers. This is such a different place for me, I think it's a good idea to document my new writing adventures. |
July 12 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends "  As a sentient adult, you are very aware that life is not a bowl of cherries or a paper moon. So what is it? Pick a metaphor filling in this statement: LIFE IS JUST A _________. I'm not in a metaphor type of mood at the moment, so I'm going to go straight out for this one. LIFE IS JUST A CHALLENGE. Don't we all agree? Don't you feel challenged in your life? Does anyone have it easy? What makes the big difference is coping skills. Can you cope? Do you have a bag of tricks to help you handle difficulty? There are many ways to handle stress. Eating a healthy diet and getting enough exercise can make a huge difference in how well you are able to cope. The body needs nutrients and hydration. It's like gasoline for the car. It needs fuel to function properly. |
| July 12 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" If you had traffic signs in your house, your office, any space you spend frequent time, what would they say? Would there be more than one? Caution would be the sign where I live. I hope people heed the warning. It doesn't say Do Not Approach. It says Caution. It's pretty straight forward. I used to drive all sorts of places with my best friend from high school. Whenever she saw the Falling Rock signs, she would yell out the window, "Falling Rock! Where are you?" I always hoped for the best when she did this because her yelling could have brought falling rock our way. I have some super memories to keep me company. Maybe Falling Rock will come my way some day. A girl can dream. |
| July 11 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends " Have you ever been in a situation where someone doubted you and you proved them wrong? Tell us about it? Unfortunately, this is my life now. My stalkers lie or misrepresent the truth and people believe them because they say they are experts. So, instead of giving me the benefit of the doubt, people assume the worst of me. A person is presumed innocent until proven guilty in a court of law. People are only supposed to be arrested with just cause. People should have upheld my rights, instead of forcing me to fight for my right to be alive and be a productive citizen of this world. People do whatever they can to end my life and prevent me from doing what I want to do with my life. My stalkers violate my right to pursue happiness as guaranteed by the Constitution of the United States of America. My stalkers have forced a math teacher to turn into a writer in order to save her own life. I am given only one option. I must write in order to defend myself against intentional false accusations. I have proven doubters to be wrong. I will continue to prove doubters wrong. This is the only option I have to win my right to be alive. We already know all about bad cops, poor quality healthcare and the legal system behaving badly. I have only myself. The pen is mightier than the sword. |
| July 11 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" What's the most spontaneous thing you've ever done? I don't really like this prompt. It's not that I think the prompt is bad. I just don't like some of the things I have done on the spur of the moment. I have had to make quick decisions on changing what I do because of the stalking disaster that destroys my life. I have had to flee for my life because I feared staying would mean things I couldn't handle. I have been scared out of multiple places to live and my family gave me no other option, but to live in my car. I have scare attacks, where I get so scared, I can barely function. I have post traumatic stress disorder from the horrors visited upon me by my stalkers. I just keep placing one foot in front of another and try to move past this horror in my life. I hope I find a way to stop the cruelty bestowed upon me and others. My stalkers attack anyone they think might be me. People are dead because of mistaken identity. |
| July 11 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" Reality TV. Go ahead, make fun of it. You know you want to. Also, list at least three humorous ideas for reality TV shows. For the overachievers, do more. Well, I don't know how many funny points I will be getting for this entry for funny Friday, but at least I know the day of the week and the date. I don't like the survival style reality shows where people are endangering their lives for entertainment. There is some educational aspect to the shows, but there is way too much risk to the participants. I know people like these shows quite a lot. Does that mean people enjoy watching people risking their lives for fun and entertainment? Some of these people end up injured or ill and require medical treatment. Why is that entertaining? I've seen a show about bad cops. It's really obvious there are wrongful things going on with law enforcement. I know people like to laugh at cops showing how poor a job they do. I look at it as a report card of how embarrassing law enforcement is. Why do cops give people such a show of just how bad they are? Aren't they embarrassed by their unacceptable behavior? Why can't cops be professional and show how great their training is? Why do they have to prove we have bad cops? The shows I saw made it look like only people of lower intelligence become law enforcement. It's a very sad commentary on just how bad law enforcement is. Why don't they clean up their acts and be respectable? The people are taxed to pay their salaries. The people want to pay for high quality law enforcement who are professional and do their jobs correctly. As far as ideas for reality shows go, should we be checking on the quality of education, medical services and the legal system? Do we need report cards on those segments of the population? Are teachers teaching? Are students behaving themselves? Are patients getting high quality care? Are prosecuters prosecuting? Are judges adjudicating properly? Are defense attorneys doing their jobs properly? These are things I want to know. Maybe I prefer hard-hitting, in depth reporting. Maybe I like the news reality TV. Are we getting the real news? |
| July 10 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" In the modern era, do you think libraries have lost their relevance? Do you have any special library moments that you remember? I believe libraries are vital to communities. I know there are some closed minded people who think reading is bad. I believe everyone who is able should learn how to read and work on their reading ability and vocabulary building throughout their lives. Reading enriches people's lives. It gives them a break from reality that can be so important for good mental health. People also learn from books. Authors work hard to add details about things that end up teaching people about topics they might never have been introduced to otherwise. Enjoying an author's artwork is a delight. I have many, many memerable library moments. I have been going to libraries since I was little. I bought my first romance novel at a book sale at the Fairview branch library in Santa Monica. It was so low cost and I was so curious to find out what was in a romance novel. I couldn't wait to get home to read it. My mom thought I was silly to want to read a romance novel. I had questions and I thought those books had answers. I got to read all about romance and I felt cheated about too few details in the love scenes. I thought romance novels were erotica. I was wrong. But it sure was fun reading about the romance. I wondered if men would be romantic with me when I grew up. I remember my mom explaining the different sections of the library and she told me about the term non fiction. I thought it sounded funny. I wanted to know what it meant. Those were the books that were true and factual. It was just anything that wasn't fiction. She would send me to the children's section and she would go to the adult section. I loved that the library had story time in the children's section. I thought it was so cool for people to take the time to read to children. The people reading the stories put so much care into reading the stories, the kids were always excited about the books. Why wouldn't they want to learn to read? Reading to children exposes them to important concepts and is a pre-reading skill for the kids to hear the cadence of the language and understand the concept of a story and how to turn the pages and that we read from left to right, front to back. An added plus of most children's books is the illustrator's artwork, so kids can learn to appreciate art at a young age. I have used the free and public access to the internet at several libraries over the years. It was fun looking around at the libraries of my youth to see the computers in good use. I was proud that Santa Monica kept up with the times. The new main library in Santa Monica has the largest free and public access computer lab I have ever seen. It is so impressive. They even have some computers not connected to the internet for people to use the office applications to type a resume or a homework assignment or a novel. The new library has such an impressive children's section. The periodical sections are also intetesting. Their computer book section is way behind the times and I found no writing prompt books in the writing section. The building is beautiful, but they have no interest in keeping up with the times. During some of my time living in my car, I used the library as a place to get work done. It is so very sad that my stalkers have convinced so many libraries to commit crimes against me. It's sad when people don't understand basic concepts about the law. I have as much right to visit and use a library as anyone else. People are not allowed to prevent me from using the library resources. Free and public access is not allowed to be denied to me and the other crimes are harming more than just me. I still enjoy libraries. I love their beauty and the wealth of knowledge they house. It was so sad to find a librarian who didn't understand the connection between schools and libraries. She didn't care about having books on the shelves to help students pass the exit exam required to graduate from high school in California. She actually thought libraries were a market for an author. How silly of her to think tons of money can be made by selling one copy of a book to a library. It was so obvious my stalkers had contacted her. My stalkers made her appear stupid. How sad is that? |
| July 10 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends " Assuming that the legalization of marijuana and gay marriage are the "hot-button" issues of our current time, what do you think the next hot-button social issues will be and why? Well, I think we still have some old hot-button topics that are still issues to be resolved. So rather than predicting the future, I'm going to highlight current issues that will most likely continue for some time. I'm sure I'll leave out something important, like education, which is a constant issue. I believe women are still fighting for freedom and equality. There are far too many men who truly believe all women are slaves in current day. Apparently some of them don't know what to do, since that whole women's liberation to-do went down. It seems some of them feel the Constitutional amendment outlawing slavery only applies to black men, rather than all forms of slavery for all people. Don't forget we still have equal pay for equal work issues. Women have to work harder and better, just to try to get somewhere close to the pay men receive. My ex-husband received more money in his paycheck when he got engaged to me and when he married me. Did I get an equal amout of additional pay for getting engaged and getting married? I felt like I was expected to quit once we got married. How would the bills get paid if I did that? I also feel there are major problems with people in healthcare refusing to recognize the legal rights of patients. I have found there are some healthcare professionals who believe they are above the law and the legal system has nothing to do with healthcare. I have found way too many issues in the world of healthcare. I am tired of dealing with the world of healthcare, but I still find a need for parts of the healthcare world. I also believe abortion is still an issue. I personally feel some people on the pro-life side of the argument are terrorists. Why would people who are pro-life bomb abortion clinics? They don't care who gets injured or killed. How is that showing they are pro-life? I understand most pro-life people are religious. Is that how they show how wonderful their religion is? I think it's a huge embarrassment. Why would they commit such criminal acts? |
| July 10 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" If you could have any author, living or dead, write your biography, who would you choose? I would choose Thom Slagle. It's not because he is one of my lovers I am still in love with after all of these years. It's because I feel he is the person who could get to the heart of the matter and do the best job. I have enough autobiographical writing to get him headed in the right direction. I trust that he would do the background research to do the book justice. He's the only person I officially give permission to do an authorized biography of my life. I have previously stated this in writing and I am restating it now, since so many things have happened since the last time I officially stated this in writing. If someone else did an unauthorized biography of my life, I'm guessing Thom Slagle's biography would be far superior. There are several Thom Slagles, as I found out. Find the one who met me in a tax class near the end of 1993. That would be the correct one, since there was only one Thom Slagle in that class. If you do find the correct one, please do let him know that I miss him and I'm still in love with him after all of these years. |
| July 9 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends " Look out a window and write a story or poem about what you see. Out The Window The entryway for my stalkers The parking lot for the ambulances Wheelchair access Doctor parking Visitor parking The weather report for the day Looking for a way to move forward |
| July 9 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" The most disgusting moment/incident/day in your life. I would have to say having my brother and his friend bring home the fish they caught and throw the fish eyeballs at me in our backyard was the most disgusting thing that ever happened to me. They threw shoes at me another time on a sleepover. I don't like things being thrown at me. Maybe that's why I decided to resign from the Stanford Bookstore after my ex husband threw something at me from the sales floor into the office area. This is an interesting meandering entry leading from one memory to another, somehow linking them together. Take care. |
| July 9 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" Do you believe in reincarnation? This is an interesting question. I have always believed that once you're dead, you're dead. I have always believed in living life to the fullest because there is no afterlife. I believe heaven and hell are places on earth. I believe everyone makes their own heaven and hell with their own lives. Other things can happen, too. Of course. Here's the funny part. I really like the idea of the spirit coming back to life again, possibly in a different form. Maybe a person gets buried with an ear of corn and the body nourishes the corn stalks as they eventually grow. Then others could be nourished by that dead person. I know that might sound gross. But what if a person is reborn as a tree? What if someone is reborn as a fish? The idea always gave me something to think about. |
| July 8 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends " Head to your favorite fellow blogger's blog. Take the third sentence in their post, and work it into a new post of your own. This could go in many directions depending on whose blog you ventured into. I'm not afraid to say my favorite blogger is Fivesixer   , but I would have been happier if the prompt would have just been about another blogger, rather than playing favorites. I believe all of the bloggers are strong.I chose the entry This one's about a ladder, kinda great days, and shut it. from Who do I still think I am?? from yestetday. He has complex sentence structure, so it could be debatable if I actually pulled out the correct sentence for the third one.I realize that I don't have to participate at all, but since I'm already here for the "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" , I may as well spread around my own special flavor of joy among as many groups as possible tonight.I like how this sentence speaks to a crowd of devoted fans. I enjoy the ease of expression used and how plain spoken this blogger is. His entries put a smile on my face because he has no problem calling a spade a spade. I enjoyed this entry because he actually responded to the entry by saying he had no response. I find humor in this. He responded with his protest and did his rant and rave in true blogger style. He gets style points in my book for his own unique method of communication. I like how dedicated he is to struggle to get words typed, even if he feels he has nothing at all to say. It was a prompt and he responded to the prompt, so he actually did write based on the prompt by stating his reasons for refusing to respond. Call me strange, but that's funny to me. |
| July 8 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" Talk about someone who gave you a hard time in school or college. It can be a teacher, a fellow student, anyone at all. I have several stories in this category. There are some teachers out there who don't understand how to grade properly or how to set expectations well. College teachers only have to know their subject matter. Their ability to teach is a different category. Their ability to grade fairly is also a different category. My senior English teacher passed the bar, yet he didn't understand how to grade fairly. He thought C meant correct, not average. He thought 60% for a D meant 60 points. He told me my oral presentation was the best in the class and he told me why it was so good. He knew what to use for evaluation, but he didn't teach how to do it properly and he didn't lay out the criteria for how we would be graded. I was very unimpressed. The only way for me to pass his classes was to turn in puzzles related to the class for extra credit. I learned how to create a word search in fifth grade as something the teacher wanted me to do to keep me busy. I worked hard on those extra credit assignments week after week. I took three classes with this one teacher. I got a D, C- and a C out of him. I had no proof, but I strongly felt that an A meant having sex with the teacher. I didn't understand how he could have so much good information to provide, but not know how to grade properly or how to present the expectations clearly. So I ended up with a lot of knowledge and puzzle making ability, but low grades. I just wanted out of high school so I could move on with my life. I just had to do my time so I could get my high school diploma and make note of things I would never do when it was my turn to be a teacher. My grading practices were called into question as a teacher. After all of the unfair grading I had experienced, it was tough to fight me on this point. I had an online gradebook, so the students could verify the grade on the paper matched the gradebook. I stated how many points each question was worth on tests and quizzes and no one found fault with how I graded the tests and quizzes. Homework was graded based on completion. If the student completed it, then they got full credit. If they only did part of it, then they received a lower score. The final grades in the gradebook matched the grades on the college transcripts. All students did was prove how good I was. If you worked hard in my class, then you succeeded. I wasn't falsely giving high or low grades. I backed up my grades with many assessments that could be verified as being handled correctly. I believe in frequent assessment. |
| July 8 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" What is a lesson in life that took you way too long to figure out? Sadly, the answer to this prompt is tragically short. It took me way too long to figure out that I can't trust my mom. I left my home, fleeing for my life, with the promise my mom gave me that she would help. This is too difficult. Sadly, my family is part of why this stalking disaster continues. They give commands to spur on my stalkers to destroy my life as much as possible. I hang on and weather the attacks the best I can. I cut off my family and the whole problem gets even worse. I have no way of getting away from my stalkers because they are directly linked to my family who barely knows me and believes the lies my stalkers make up. I am a perpetual stalking victim. |
 I just wrote another poem and I think I did a good job on it. I feel like my poetry is getting stronger and more meaningful lately. It makes me feel good to finish writing a poem that I like. It cheers me up. It's a different feeling than the good feeling I get when I finish a story. I guess the poems feel like I shared feelings and the stories feel like I shared a picture of life. They are both important in their own way. They each have a place in life. Both poetry and stories enrich our culture and provide food for thought, so people can have strong minds. I'm not much of a reader. I struggle with reading and reading comprehension, but I still do it. My grandma had a book of poetry on her shelf and I used to pull it out and read random pages while I lived with her for a couple of years. I have different reading tastes than my family. I am so different from my family. It's a struggle to be with them because they don't appreciate me and I'm not sure they even like me. Will my mom and grandma like my book of poetry? My aunt said she liked my poetry better than my stories. She didn't say she wanted to own my books. Maybe my other aunt will appreciate my books. Maybe I will try to send book gifts for Christmas this year. Maybe I will get a stray compliment. Will they ever be proud of me? I will stay proud of myself. That will be enough. |
| July 7 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" Drowned By Betrayal and a Ladder To Heaven The Drowning Ladder The betrayal is drowning me Where is my ladder to heaven? Let me climb out of this mess Why was I betrayed? Did I deserve betrayal? I say nay I must hold myself up I must support myself Who is there to lean on? Maybe strangers will help Maybe they will be friend I have enough foe Will I find the ladder to heaven? Will I pull myself out of dispair? Yes, I will |
| July 7 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" It was a stupid thing to say... Gee... I have so many hurtful comments to fill in here. I crossed the street yesterday and someone in a car in the crosswalk yelled out of his car that I was a pedophile. And people wonder how I know what's going on when people are that blatent. They actually think it's totally different than calling me a child molester. This is just how my life goes. It doesn't matter what I do or where I go. It just follows me and it's sad that these people think vigilante justice is the way to handle things. All I can do is take each day one at a time. Thanks for reading. |
| July 7 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends " Write about a great day. A great day would be when my life is good enough so that I can do whatever I want to do. I would love to have too many things I want to do and can do so that my great day leaks into the next day and then into every other day after that. If I want to rest, I can. If I want to play music, I can. If I want to do my arts and crafts, I can. I want to have a life again. I'm so tired of having no place to live. I never thought I would end up homeless and living in my car three times. I just want to move past this disaster and move on with my life. Maybe the right man will show up, too, as an added bonus. I want to fall in love. That would make a great day. |
| July 6, Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" Review your peers and your posts. Share your best blog post from your own posts and two from your peers. "This one's about existential crises." by Fivesixer pulled at me because ha said he is no longer looking for love and I feel this is tragic. He also included a math alert I found interesting because it reminded me of syllogisms. I used to teach syllogisms in the geometry classes I taught at Lake Tahoe Community College. I first learned about them in my twelfth grade philosophy class. The study of logic was part of the philosophy class. I loved the information in that class so much, I took philosophy and logic at Humboldt State University. I got the smart kid C- in philosophy because I took the class for a grade instead of credit/no credit. I got the stupid girl A- in logic because women aren't supposed to be logical, but every test score was an A, so the other letters of the alphabet were unacceptable. So this blog entry brought up a lot of thoughts for me."Invalid Entry" by Mitchopolis  pulled at me because of its strong writing and the timeline of his life where he did or didn't want to forget things. It was very touching and to the core how he disclosed that he is afraid of being more and more forgetful as he ages because of family history. This entry haunts me."Invalid Entry" by {suser_id:} is about my strong views on religion that enrage people. I don't like to discuss my personal beliefs all that much because I know my views upset and anger so many people. I thought it was odd a religious leader on this site did not know everyone is equal in the eyes of the law. I guess people get stuck in their beliefs. There are so many people hateful towards women, it's not shocking that many people think women are lessor beings. I heard a rumor that some people don't know women are the female of the human species. They actually think women don't have human rights because they don't think women are human beings. This shows a huge problem in education. How can a properly educated person not know that women are human beings?Stalking victim alert... I found the entry I referenced from my blog in this posting edited. How dare any slime edit my blog? How dare any person destroy my unique voice? I self publish so pieces of garbage don't change what I have created. I learned the hard way to use pdf files to publish my books on https://www.LuLu.com because some piece of garbage put a typo into the introduction of an English workbook. What an embarrassment to have a glaring mistake in a book meant to teach better than that. They just assumed I would want the editing service I didn't ask for or pay for. I'm sure there are good editors out there, but so far I am unimpressed. I decide the final work. If it's terrible, then it falls on me. Keep your sticky fingers off of my creations. I don't want the stink of editors on my works of art. |
| July 5 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" Athiests deny God because they have no proof of his existence. There is no proof as to WHY we fall in love, should they deny the existence of Love likewise? Fools In Love Why do fools fall in love? Because it feels so good Is it good to fall in love? We get babies from love Does love exist? The babies say yes |
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