Meth: a Ticking Timebomb Gone Viral

I Thought So

I have made an appointment with my GP for a referral to mental health services. I attend Tuesday's group meeting every week. I train every day without excuse. I am approaching three months clean and sober and have only had one lapse in the last six months. I'm not concerned about relapse...I have people who care about me...people who I can rely on if things change for the worse.

I spend around two (and sometimes more) hours a day writing posts for this blog. I hope those who come here have enjoyed what I have written and understand that I am not just doing this for me...I am doing this for us.

I didn't post yesterday because I wanted to see if anyone would answer the two questions I asked, and of the twenty or so people who have been on my blog since the last entry, no one...not one person could be bothered to share their experience in the matter I raised.

So be it...my membership approaches and if people cannot be bothered to spend a few minutes helping me, well why should I give a fuck (no question mark required because I already know the answer is silence) about them. I'm not angry, just disappointed.

There are some people I will miss, but mostly, not. I mean, what is there to miss when anonymous members come and go and never say a word...like ghosts...or ghouls might be more appropriate. Vampires who suck the blood of others and give nothing back in return.

I'll find a new home, and if people are the same there as they are in general here, then I will move on again. I have a feeling this is part of an epidemic of apathy and selfishness...akin to the mob mentality when toilet paper becomes the only thing that matters to people.

Thank you to those who have supported me by commenting and liking this blog and my portfolio. Now, I have work to do to make sure I have all of the items on my port transferred to files on my PC before my membership closes in a few weeks.

It's my birthday tomorrow...happy fucking birthday to me. This blog is now officially ended. Goodbye.