Effective Venting

Happy Birthday to me...

Yes, my birthday is in a week....and I already feel like I am going to cry. How many times will I be let down after putting my hopes up so high? Why do I set those standards so high? I feel like I'm about to burst, because I've been betrayed again....if it were me, even sickness would not stop me from being with somebody I loved so much. I'm crying now....I'm sure most of you know that feeling....like waiting for a date in your best....when you know deep down they'll never come...ever.....and then they will, once, just to keep you loyal and happy enough to wait another 7 or 8 times. I just cannot believe he would do that to me....after he knew how much I was looking forward to it....even if he was sick. How could he? I'm faithful, I have never strayed from him, never dared to think of anyone else....I have lost my girlfriend, someone I loved so much, to him, for him.... and all I can feel is pain so deep that my heart is going to burst. You know, at first, I thought he would heal me....and I still hope he will...but sometimes I ask myself if he really will...and its scary to know that I have to think about it even for a second. Their right about people eating when they're depressed. I just sat a minute ago, and was munching on a candy bar before I even realized I had picked it up. I'm pathetic....What an update for you eager readers.... Well. I'm glad that some people like my Night of the Butterflies story... Thats good. I'm going to go to the skating rink and have a breakdown now. Have a nice evening friends