Life as we know it sucks

In continuation...

Current mood: happy

Current song: Lost in the Translation - The June Spirit




I must return to my thoughts, no? Exactly. Well, it's just that Jacob and I have been in connection since the first time we met. Everything we do or think is in concurrence. And I'm in love with him. I can't hurt him. This is different. With Matt I always seemed to hurt him. But with Jacob, I dunno, there's something new, different, exciting. Call it what you want. I want to make him happier than Matt ever was. Hell! I even want him to trust me now. All this I'm feeling is real. It's here. It's visible. I just am ecstatic about that. I made such a horrible mistake when I was trying to get him not to trust me. Even if nothing's going to happen, I'm glad I found this out. I'm SO glad. I just want to tell the whole world how I feel. But I guess I'll just start with Jacob. I have to tell him. It's a necessity. Maybe it'll change something. I don't think he's ready for a relationship though. And I understand that. I'm sorta not either. But I am at the same time. I dunno. It's complicated and it's not like anyone's really reading this. I'm just pouring out my thoughts for latter use.