Life as we know it sucks

Carpe Diem

Current mood: tired

Current song: Blister in the Sun - Violent Femmes





I have received so many signs in my day. Most of them I didn't even know they were signs. But the past few days, it's been nonstop. I don't know what they mean.

Just the other day I was watching channel 961 (Power Rock), and the song that was on was "Carpe Diem Baby" by Metallica. Seize the day. Gees. I've gotten many Carpe Diem signs lately. So, I figured it was telling me that I should be straightforward with Jacob. I always am anyway. Well, sorta. I've been keeping things from him... And I don't usually do that.

He always tells me feelings are meant to be expressed, and I know that. Usually I tell him everything I'm feeling for him in every conversation. But I feel like it's too much, so I've been stopping lately. Friends is all we're going to be. FRIENDS! Get that through your head. God. I wish I could. I need to find a boyfriend...that actually lives here. I just feel undesirable. <sigh>

Something in my life is missing...