trapped in a soap opera

a few hours later

God this sucks, been chatting online with chris and others, talking about sex. THIS IS NOT HELPING MY HORNINESS FACTOR!!! i need to get laid--hopefully while im gone John will morph into ryan. god that man had a magic tongue--dont get me wrong sex with John is good but not even close to Ryan. Chris was driving me crazy earlier--i love it when guys talk in bed--kind of a play by play--he was tellin gme all the things he would like to do to me--i had to go smoke. I think it would be fun to meet him and see what happens we seem to mesh so well but anything that goes this well is sure to turn out a disappointment or something weird. i would hate it if we click so well online then i met him and just nothing happened--kind of like the whole being in love with a friend thing--do you risk the friendship on a chance they might love you back..im not in love with him just dont want to fuck up what we have.