trapped in a soap opera

lookin up

well, i cant say much right now, cause i got to go clean up dog shit for a few hours, damn community service. got up late today, but still made it to calculus on time--think i did ok on the test--not thinkin an A, but probably a B i dont know. got our abnormal psych tests back--i was one of only 2 ppl to get an A on it--yea me!!!! i figured i got a B on that one there were about 8 i was unsure of and u could only miss 5--but i picked the right ones i guess--only missed 4 (well i missed 5, but everyone missed it so she threw it out). got to go do this shit (literally), then maybe by that time jamae will be home and i can talk to him :) hopefully John is home too i havent talked to him since wed night and that was only for a min. but anyway--im so happy things are finally starting to look up for me for once--kinda scares me cause it never stays there for long. ive kinda got used to liking things just ok, cause when theyre good, things always end up fucked up in the end--if theyre just ok they generally tend to stay that way. anyway, got an e-mail today from Arthur (my 2nd husband) i think he was high or something i was lamenting losing me--not fun. hes a good guy we just didnt work out i hate that hes still so fucked up about it but i gave him hundreds of chances told him that was what i was doing and he didnt listen--pretended there wasnt a problem--and lost me. like the song--ignore it, itll go away.
anyway got to go to work now yukyukyukyukyuk. ill write more later probably.