trapped in a soap opera

the really hot guy

well i ended up going to the moose last night and shannon was there. i went with shawn and daniel so spent most of my time with them, and shannon spent most of the night with his friends (there were quite a few), we talked about some ppl we used to know (i kinda knew him a few years ago) when the moose closed, i drove him to where hes stayin (he was stayin at a friends cause he lives about 45 min away), cause he didnt think he could drive. ended up messin around on the couch and just laying together. nothing really happened--he was takin clues from me and vice versa--besides there was a girl passed out about 5 ft away in a chair and our blanket wasnt very big LOL. it was cool though. when i left this morning (about 8 LOL) he said hed call next weekend--not holding my breath but it would be cool. even if it is just to finish what we started--i need to get laid ha ha. i thought he was hot back then--he still is. he kinda kissed rough--hard i guess is a better word, not exaclty how i do--dont knwo about in bed since we didnt get that far, but who knows--besides skill in bed isnt everything anyway ive figured that out, would rather have a guy who was halfway decent at being a boyfriend--course sex great but still...

still dont know what to do about john i think were drifting apart (by the way shannon falls into the catefory of somethign really good LOL go back a few entries)i guess ill just take both of them one day at a time and see what happens.

well got to go help mom out then do abunch of other shit. i didnt get any sleep and got stuff goin on till like 9 tonight--oh well!