trapped in a soap opera

weird happenings

this has been a very weird 2 days--hooking up with shannon--who i used to have a thing for...then tonight jamae came over.
whats weird is he kinda likes me but has a g/f that hes had since we used to hang out--which was like 3 yrs ago. hes probalby breaking up with her--but all that is not really important i guess.
what is strange is that we almost dated then, i liked him, but fucked it up by having sex with another guy. we werent really together just were kinda talking, anyway, after that we were just good friends but i always still liked him. wasnt sure how id feel seeing him again after all this time. but i really dont feel anything. i wasnt attracted to him now. funny thing is hes attraced to me, and he used to be one of my closest friends so i dont want to hurt him
got to go to bed soon talking to cliff (friend from OK) but have a dr appt early so anyway.