My True Soul

RIP Crystal

One of our dogs died today -- Crystal. She was about 11 years old...died of kidney failure, only took about 2 days. Not a huge deal in some ways, but, very big in other ways. She had Parvo when she was little, my uncle was dying from cancer at the same time, and seeing her get through that helped my family and I get through my uncle dying. She helped me mom get through it especially and it was only because of my mom that Crystal made it through the Parvo.

I cried, my dad cried, my mom cried off and on most all day. She was at work when this happened, she had to pull over and stop, couldn't quit crying, I know she had to of been crying for at least an hour straight if not longer.

So, needless to say...today wasn't a good day.

Tiger Boy (my kitten who lives with me when I'm in college and now) got to go to the vet this mornin' to get neutered. We're supposed to be confining him to his carrier, but when he's in it, he won't rest. He just wants out, who can blame him. But now he wants attention so bad that I'm afraid he's gonna hurt himself..but I really don't wanna hafta put him in the carrier again. I'm hoping if he doesn't see me, he'll calm down again and go back to sleep. I'm gonna check before I go to bed, if he's not asleep then I'll let him in my room and see if he'll sleep with me.

Nevermind, I just saw a spider...I'm not sleeping in my room tonight. I'm all keyed up now... I was perched on my chair, to keep it from crawling up my leg. I still don't have my feet on the ground. Sometimes spiders really bother me. Today, my whole system has been on edge. It's still on edge. Worrying about Tiger Boy, everything with Crystal, worrying about my mom, plus everything else. Jake started telling me about him getting bit by snakes...last weekend we spotted a lil baby snake about 50 feet from our house... dude. System is all geared up.

Shorty, if you happen to read this...call me in tomorrow/in the morning. (5-18) I wanna go to the school, but I don't know how or if I'm gonna be able to wake up.

Anyways...I don't think my dad has much planned for me...I hope not.

Um, everything else I'm thinking about really just doesn't seem to matter today.